It has been awhile since I'd been writing here, and I decided to do so to express the anxiety I felt lurking on my heart. As every normal human being will do, I am stuck in the time of dilemma where I am clueless on what I should be doing in life. As much as the pioneers can call it, indeed we are a "Strawberry" generation as we are coined. There is no more fighting spirit left as I feel that there is nothing more to fight for. Everything has been laid nicely by our predecessor, and realistic and skepticism has been set forth in us by the vibes so conveniently laid by those before us.
Back to my point, afraid to lose out yet afraid to start on something I cannot comprehend is really scary.
Dreams, everybody has them. I held onto mine since almost a decade ago. I still want to live that dream, but I'm waiting. As I pen my thoughts and what's on my heart, I start to reinforce what I really wanted to achieve, yet I also want to start putting away thoughts that I am starting to be sure of. Maybe I should approach and talk to my psychiatrist grandaunt?
Problems, is always in my path, and when they come, they surge up like tsunami, sometimes too overwhelming.
People say that in everything in life, there is always this unseen cost, the opportunity cost, and that is what I am experiencing as I chose to continue pursuing education at the cost of a career head start.
I am still trying to figure what I want in life. I hope that mystery get uncovered soon
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