sometimes, i feel so invisible especially when i feel the heat

Sometimes, i feel so empty. I feel maybe it's the intensity i'm feeling in my life. then i think to myself, am i an escapist or what? why on earth do i feel so lousy everytime i face my mountain? it feels that i'm back to those days of constrictions and pressures of life, restrictions and being controlled all over again, but the worse thing is, i have no one to talk to about it. there's always this feeling that nobody truely cares. nobody's willing to hear who i really am. but than again, nobody will understand what i'm going through even if they heard me out. sometimes i really really wonder about my future, what am i going to do i life? my path is so unclear, so uncertain, so unpredictable. i dont blame them for understanding simply because even i dont really know what goes on in my little small heart and thoughts. i cant even comprehend whether it is an issue of schoolwork, relationship, or even regrets... worse still, guilt.. or simply just fatigue. i do feel that i'm a little crazy at times and so emotional and temperamental. i just hv to do something to get rid of the frustration, heat, and pressures. but right now, it seems i'm caught and tangled in the same web all over again. God, help me please. they hv no idea how much i need You in my life. :( Love, Hannah