HYH, i still can't forget you no matter how much i try to. You are on my mind so often i can barely give any other guys any chance. you have been the one on my heart since i dunno when, but when you are there, the door's closed on the other men.
I do not say this proudly, but i seriously miss you so much. If what Kok hong told me was the truth, then hurry tell me that. You barely know what truely is going on. you barely understand what's on my heart. you only stepped into the thorny grounds of my heart, you haven't seen the roses and the beauty just as yet. If only. if only you wanted me as badly as i want you. If only i were a man, and you were the lady. If only i had not fallen so deep into this, if only you liked me more than i liked you...
I always believed in you anyway, and i never saw a loser in you to begin with. I always saw a potential. Somebody i identified with. your presence in my life has cushioned my world, you away from me, makes me feel like a goldfish out of water, like a little chick out of its nest. Hay, where are you. don't be gone from me. I will stay apart from your world watching you. you mean a lot to me, because i cannot be so selfish. i cannot want. But i just need to air how much i miss you here. It's my only way of letting my little heart cry out silently. Nobody knows, nobody asks me or talks to me about you. Nobody. But i miss you no matter how far apart you seem to be from me.
Love,
Hannah
Silenced lovelorn
