Perspective. Love. Trust.... perhaps my greatest gift. is still God

Here I am
True worshippers youth

Verse 1
Here I am worshipping with my soul
And my heart rejoices in You
'Cause You are my God, my shelter
The tower of strength all my days

Verse 2
All the things I can do
It's all because of You
There's none of me, it's all of You
So here I am worshipping You

chorus
You are my God, You are my light
Shine on me bright, so I can see Your way
Teach me oh God
To rest myself in You
Lead me on, 'till I find my way home to You

ending
You are my God, You are my light
Shine on me bright, so I can see Your way
Teach me oh God
To rest myself in You
Lead me on, lead me on, lead me on, lead me on
Lead me on, lead me on, lead me on, 'till I find my way home to You




busy life. tired moments. unrested moments.

trying to finish my final business proposal which is way past my dateline. i thank God for grace. will just continue doing my research and finish up my proposal after i'm done airing my thoughts and heart here.

meaningful life i'm finding as i continue to run my race. i guess, life is really full of surprises and uncertainties. but that is where i learn the difference between those who have God and those who don't.

For me, i have God. my securities are anchored in God, i have purpose in life, and i value the deeper and greater things in life. i have come to realize that as i began to get more and more exposed to society, there are different hierachies in society and i thank God that i have the opportunity to rise above the average. living life with God has really taught me to see from a different perspective where my non-christian friends can't. they let insecurities boil down into their spirit which rouses the insecurities and paranoia in their lives. boyfriend issues, fear of losing her bf to another girl...

thank God i now see beyond the surface. its pointless to keep living in paranoia because what will happen will happen, and what doesn't happen, won't happen. Just live a blameless life, that's what i believe.

I really really Thank God for my life. and the things He has given to me in my life. Seriously, without Him, i think i'd be wasted by now.

i said that because i had been so exposed to so much worldliness these days i feel that i sometimes can't breathe in my position, i just need to get hold of what i have always sought, my strength and security.. my pillar.

Thank God for building my character and convictions and to stand firm. To see beyond my perplexities and desperation adn even in times of frustrations.

Thank God for close friends who will talk with me, listen to me and give me wise advises. Thank God for family that loves me. Thank God for a best friend who stands by me. Thank God for tenacity that pushes me upwards. Thank God that He hears me whenever i cry alone in my space.

i have nothing else to say except to really Thank my God for the great things He's working in my life.

However, i have a thought about somebody close to my heart. Here's it, I believe in him, i trust him and that's why many times i don't probe. And sometimes though i looked irritated with him, i'm actually not. i love him with the love of Christ and that's why i feel secure at life.
i will say that i'd respect his space and his peace even if it meant my standing to protect him. For the many things he's done for me, i'm truly grateful.

Though sometimes in my own time, i'd miss him, hanging out, joking and just talking about life, but i will not dismiss my sense of propriety and bug him because i would think it to be irritating? *just thinking in his shoes though. i wouldn't even want to pick faults with him despite his imperfections. And though i hear different stories from people, and all the discomfort from them, i still trust him very much... simply because i believe in him and even more so entrusted him into God's hands.

Indeed he has a lot to grow in, but i'm not despising him. infact i will still choose to stand for him who has stood for me. his choice and decisions, i guess there's a valid reason behind him, he isn't a gullible or naive person and is pretty wise person. Whatever happens in life, i will choose to stand by him because i remember my promise to God. The promise of letting this little chick in my hand gently go that it may grow in Him. I know that he has a good heart and has grown in his character. Just needs to let God continue moulding him, and also myself.

Final thing is that if there were something i wann him to know is that he doesn't need to try to be somebody he isn't because who he is, is who we love. a genuine change occurs from within not on the exterior, and God chooses the meek and humble, the non-attractive or rather "unloud" things in the world to exalt His name, those that are broken to Him. i love what God loves and i will stand by my dear friend.

Indeed i am not one to torment people i respect. perhaps God brought me up that way, so for me, what's mine is mine, what isn't mine, isn't mine. But i'm waiting for my promised one, the one man i will love and be happily married to my entire lifetime whom God has set apart for me. But even if he doesn't appear, i'm happy enough to be able to live an abundant and blessed life alone on earth. Life is also fun alone. :)But up to then, i will keep my heart pure and guarded.

Love,
Hannah
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