hmms!! :)
I had a great time at Sentosa Cove today, it was an experience, it was magnificent splendor, it was fabulous time spent with family. There was lots of good food, fondue, peking duck, vietnamnese seafood row, even unlimited serving of marble slab ice cream, n lots of alcohol. I bet my grandfather had the time of his life drinking his portion. I haven't seen my grandad so happie in so long. kudos!
well, of course i had my share of alcohol: hoegarden, muscato, champagne. YUP, but i surprisingly did not get drunk. amazingly, but what i enjoyed most from this time out at cove, really was my personal time admiring the grand splendor, the sea -the south china sea? it was simply fascinating to be alone, grasping every breath i could take alone and dream big dreams, inhaling every moment of hope in a season such as this, i thought i really needed that.
I also loved chatting with my relatives, about life, about interests, about getting me into SIA, that was really smth i learnt from my aunt who was working there. It was simply awesome to know that i had family standing behind and supporting me. But i vehemently disagree with my mum that she thinks i am easily influenced by my friends, which she feared if i got the job opportunity, that i would mess up my life. She said i must have a strong ground worded in God. i'm sure that i would because God is so much a part of my life, and i have pre-made decisions, and promises to fulfill. People cannot just change my mind the way it has been altered and girded by God. Perhaps by and by i might face discouragements, and shift out of perspective a little sometimes, but i have grasp onto God for the longest season of my life, and i have to say that God is irreplaceable in my life no matter what.
I know that i haven't been writing in here for the longest of time, but i have so much to share, and pour my heart and insights out. I personally believe in God, that's why it bugs me to hear people criticizing my faith, but it doesn't really matter because they have not experienced God the extent i have. Nevertheless, over the long time, i have finally been promoted to be a PCGL in church, given greater responsibility over the people, over a larger portion of the kingdom of God. More than anything else, it was personal recognition from God Himself. It could only be the power of God because my promotion was came personally from the pastor himself. I mean, it could be God moving behind every action right. It was such a comfort to my heart, it was God's way of saying "Hannah, i remembered you..."
tears well in my eyes, i feel that all the more, i have to give my best for God's best. I feel i have a calling in the market place, a support in God's kingdom financially & pastorally. Should anything happen to anyone of God's people, my heart definitely will sink, that's why i cannot just let the people of God be hanging there, ultimately, i have to lead His people back to HIM.
that's why i am very convinced and convicted that i will not be influenced by the culture faced in the airline company, nonetheless, if i get it, i get it, if i don't, i don't, i'm fine, and i would probably go into teaching or some other jobs in the customer-hospitality industry. that's my forte, i know.
okays, back to my thoughts today, i know that i had a great time at sentosa cove, and one day, when i have the money, i would also but a property there. I am very happie for my granduncle and his family because they are still so loving despite all the smoking and drinking. i honour and respect my granduncle because he is a responsible man. though i did fancied the general gathering, i was really missing church, i wanted to end my agony as soon as possible to be back on the team, going about in God's work. there's so much to do in the people's lives. I wanted to build the pillars strong. But the most burning issue on my heart was the time i wanted to spend with God alone, since i was so tired from the past few days, but i told myself, no matter what, i need to seek God tonight before i sleep. i really miss the presence of God. that's what i wanted to share. the heart of christianity is really, not about getting the good things, the wisdom, the guidance, the anointing, whatsoever, but really, it is the personal console we get in God. He deserves it. :)
I love my God, i love my Jesus! :)
Love,
Hannah
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