Feeling a little upset. Unleashing capacity.

Hi.
I'm home from shopping with mum, n i'm feeling a little upset abt smth tt happened earlier on. It triggered my hrt how i need t be different from wat my heritage has t offer me. I've been watching n observing how life has been. How ppls' behaviour determines outcomes. It all lies in wisdom. Sometimes, i just feel tt we hv t get out abt feeling small inside. Yes, God is a God of abundance n He is gd. Why should we dwell in our little worlds of self pity? I will Fight against all odds t go against tt. I may not hv a father, but i don't hv 2 feel lousy abt it, i may not hv alot of material wealth, but i don't hv t Feel bad abt it either. I may not always get what i want, but so what? I will get it when the time is right, if not, it probably isn't really suitable for me. Strip me off everything i own, i will still stand on my 2feet t embrace what God has given me tt can nvr be stripped from me. I belong t a royal priesthood, an inheritance tt lasts forever. Stressed, so what? Be focused on what is meant 2b focused upon. No more soaking in self pity, not even soaking in pride. get out of it. I live to stand on God's word n promises.

Love,
Hannah
Brokenness

Hey. I'm walking to the busstop on my way home from a great ldrs mtg at church. M so empowered. As i sat there in the mtg, many thoughts n visions began to flow into my spirit. But i m most opened t one particular word, which is in this specific season 2b broken. As i walk, i began to think. Deep within me entrench many thoughts tt many don't see. only God truly sees n understands everything. But i was wondering in my humanity tt if a person who so close to one's heart ignores tt person. What does it mean? There's more than just surface deep issues. Personally, its a sign of abrupt situations tt has caused an effect on the person who decided t ignore. Then, i believe tt this calls for a major clarification for the misunderstanding. Respect comes to the person who chooses n knows how to deal with situations wisely. If u wann t gain the respect of ppl w/o falling in possible mess l8r on in, den deal it rightly. If ur heart is right, n ur conscience clear, there's no need t ignore. Tts how a clap comes abt with 2 hands. If u see dirty hands coming tgt, u'll see dirty outcome. Conversely, if u see 2 clean hands coming tgt, then the issue is outrightly solved. Do ur stuff n i'll do mine. But if u don't make tt effort t resolve it, whether a gd clap or bad clap, it will not come to pass. My heart is right, my conscience clear, vision gleams brightly too. I'm clear who my master is, i don't need anyone t sow doubts in me. I may not be the most matured, but i noe tt maturity comes with the acceptance of responsibility. Shirk ur responsibility, u lose ur character. Gonna run n focus on God, ppl no more. Brokenness is what it takes at this point in life. Brokenness to the heart of God. Reluctance is just humanity, but mortality is reliance.

Love,
Hannah
Brokenness for a greater purpose

Thoughts on my mind

Hey there,

Won't deny the fact tt i woke up glum this morning. Felt abruptly disturbed when i realised tt i've always missed out what ldrs discussed. Mtgs n everything. Its a feelin of frustration n irritation. But when i opened my bible t read God's word, God encouraged me again n again. But as i m, can't help ridding the feel of manipulation on my life. For tt reason, i've promised tt i'll nvr doing smth against my values in life. Hate it when ppl think n treat me like i'm a kid oblivious to what's happening around me. Just shut my mouth to situation n circumstance for the sake the one who mattered most in my life. Then again, just wanna express myself here.. For me to die is gain, for me to live is Christ. Only God can convince me to make wise decisions.

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Hey dudes!

Life's simply awesome with Jesus! I was just thinking n Thinking n Thinking. N i really really really love my life! Its not a perfect life, its not a life everyone would wann t live, but i love it bcos i'm living it. :) the best thing abt my life is being able t own n rule it. And the better thing is tt, taking charge of my life with God is even more exciting! Can't elaborate how excited i am abt the future, can't tell u much in words. Just have t let it show so that it may speak louder than words! :) just watch the Power of the God i have, i love Jesus n i am glad i chose to believe. :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Hi there!

I'm studying @ changi airport @ 2.37am n honestly i'm a little unable to go on. This has been a combination of the non-stop schedule since 5am this morning. N the fact tt i'm doing maths is enough t fully utilise my brain cells. So, i need a hard break. Now, i'm sitting in a cosy corner listening to songs of my parents' generation. Not tt i chose to, but its really quite pleasant moment now. Okays, i'll study in awhile. But first, major hit away from the books are my incessant need t express my thoughts.
Here it goes. With the recent strife at home, i've been considering long enough, n i base my security in 1stly God. Then i'm thinking tt i'm gonna study hard n break free of this crap situation my family n i are in. I wanna live my dreams. To let them live a gd life when i'm well n abled to, moreover, i wanna give my best yrs t God as well. WE're moving outta the place to a better one anyway. GOD IS GOOD. Then, i've also been thinking long n hard enough in the area of relationships n future, how marriage cud be a gr8 or a detrimental thing if not careful. A lesson learnt is 2 choose ur spouse with wisdom, n God's boon. Thought abt it, n i felt tt the best is still 2 wait for God's best arrives. Meantime, be prepared 2b alone all my life. Sometimes it isn't tt bad u noe. I feel tt i've come t put a emotional social barrier over my life as a guard t keep me from falling. Its not fun living a life of suspense n i get irritated at the thought of ppl mistaking me t be interested in them when i'm not. Also, impeccable friendships. But even if i were, i know whr t draw the line n Follow God's time. I don't need all these child's play mentality interfering in the way i do life. I prefer a free n easy life away from tied down emotional solemn. Mum said I was nvr born 2b a sad child, so don't try fitting me into tt. I'm not one 2b meddled with. Try it n you'll noe.

Apart from tt, i really love my life. :) and i won't wan2 mess it up. I'm gg t the washroom now! ;)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG