B zone Christmas Dinner

YO!

Its nearing Christmas soon, and i'm really excited for the things tht will be coming soon. Anyway, we had a great time at Gang yuan's house. The food was great, and the people enjoyed themselves. For me, what i loved particularly was the part where the group went to the convenient store to shop for a gift to exchange for the cg gift exchange session. I think that was the time that the team spirit, fun, warmth and enjoyment occurred.

Met people like Shu xin, Yong kang, Yun Hui, Han jie, and even Rita!

There's a reason why i love my zone. :)Anyway, I thank God for everything in my life. God meet and supplies my needs. i live on God and for God.

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Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Deep in thoughts

Hey.

I've not been here for sometime, listening to bleeding love. just a random tune on my itunes player. Read somebody's blog entry and got a little abrupt by what i saw. It was disturbing -bombasticity to say a simple thing, i render its too complicated, but what to do? people work is all about loving people. yet, i feel so stuck with the whole situation. i rather people be honest in my face then to actually communicate via the virtual world. i mean, yes, air your thoughts, say what you want here, but if it meant to get it to somebody else specifically, get it straight out like an arrow from its quiver. shoot it out. The truth may hurt, but only for awhile.

be correct, not politically correct.

a pure heart is what i long for. a heart that will follow hard after God. no matter what setbacks or challenges i may face in the journeys of this life, i will want to follow tightly after God, and after the will of God. I may face a situation of life that may make me feel so burdened, but i will not let the devil beat me down! no Way! the God in me is greater than he.

Thoughts has been circulating within my mind like a movie loop, and i've been thinking and considering many many things in, on and about life. Its not easy to comprehend so much things, but i have purposed in my heart that i will not be beaten by the intimidation that is brought upon me. God is a good God and He would build my house when i have set myself to build His house.

Feeling a little nauseous right now, guess its the many meaty stuff i stuffed into my mouth during dinner and the drink concoction my uncle made for us. Its supposed to be something good, but i don't feel good in any case at all. gotta sign off soon, but just wanna encourage people out there who feels down and discouraged, and feel the burden weighed upon your shoulders. DON'T BE DISCOURAGED! LET GO AND LET GOD HANDLE YOUR CASE. :) do our best so God can do the rest.

Keep Building His Empire! :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Why am i feeling so low now?

i think now is just one of those times that i sit and reflect abt life and feel bad abt it. Right now, i'm seated at the reception, and i have feeling this kind of feeling quite recently. The feel of anxious, guilt and a little dismay and disappointed. Disappointed in myself. i can even feel tears welling in my eyes. Feel myself so lousy and not pushing myself to the fullest of my poten†ial. It not me †o feel and think way i do, its just that something has indeed eaten into me rather recently. I have to learn to forgive, i have to learn to love and rely on God through the storms. bad day, bad feel. bad me.

Insights reflected on a Faraway journey

Hey Yo!

I'm on my journey home to bukit timah from woodlands. 960 is the bus, can imagine the journey of this ride? Haha. Anw, really loved the xrave live demo, think our ldrs are really cool ppl! But more than tt, i loved it when Pst Lia preached today. Anointing flows. **as usual
Since i've a long journey ride, i won't hesitate t tell you more of what gr8 experience i had. :) i imagine alot, n if u don't catch it, i mean ALOT! But i hv came t an understanding tt i need t begin surrendering my imagination t God all over again. Tt i may attain imagination at a higher level. Tt is, holy imagination. Our minds are really powerful, n if not careful, we could fall into the traps of the devil tt steals, kill n destroy. In essence, we can only choose t follow one. For me, i choose to Follow Him who has picked me from the deathpits of my life. In Him, dreams n vision boom forth within my spirit. Once upon a time, i've been hit deep in my spirit but God encourages me with the vision of a 10000 over congregation. I can see it in my spirit, n i'm running towards tt. Another one tt sticks close in my heart, the vision of a worship pastor, business counselor. A full time church staff, part time world staff, but, carrying great influence on the ppl who comes in contact with me. Great dreams come from a great God, life, its only gonna happen once on earth, n the rest in eternity. Why not live my best for Jesus? Also, i see a great future ahead. Gotta let tt sink into my spirit for what has not alrd happened within will nvr happen in the future.. I rest my calling upon the shoulders of almighty, why be narrow minded n be offended when there's a greater purpose t fulfill in life? If the devil's gonna use knitty tactics against me, i will not budge. :) i will refuse 2b ignored in God, in life! Hence, i will keep loving God, ppl n life, no matter what it takes. BIG GOD, BIG THINKING. BIG THINKING, BIG MENTALITY. BIG MENTALITY, BIG INHERITANCE. :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Feeling a little upset. Unleashing capacity.

Hi.
I'm home from shopping with mum, n i'm feeling a little upset abt smth tt happened earlier on. It triggered my hrt how i need t be different from wat my heritage has t offer me. I've been watching n observing how life has been. How ppls' behaviour determines outcomes. It all lies in wisdom. Sometimes, i just feel tt we hv t get out abt feeling small inside. Yes, God is a God of abundance n He is gd. Why should we dwell in our little worlds of self pity? I will Fight against all odds t go against tt. I may not hv a father, but i don't hv 2 feel lousy abt it, i may not hv alot of material wealth, but i don't hv t Feel bad abt it either. I may not always get what i want, but so what? I will get it when the time is right, if not, it probably isn't really suitable for me. Strip me off everything i own, i will still stand on my 2feet t embrace what God has given me tt can nvr be stripped from me. I belong t a royal priesthood, an inheritance tt lasts forever. Stressed, so what? Be focused on what is meant 2b focused upon. No more soaking in self pity, not even soaking in pride. get out of it. I live to stand on God's word n promises.

Love,
Hannah
Brokenness

Hey. I'm walking to the busstop on my way home from a great ldrs mtg at church. M so empowered. As i sat there in the mtg, many thoughts n visions began to flow into my spirit. But i m most opened t one particular word, which is in this specific season 2b broken. As i walk, i began to think. Deep within me entrench many thoughts tt many don't see. only God truly sees n understands everything. But i was wondering in my humanity tt if a person who so close to one's heart ignores tt person. What does it mean? There's more than just surface deep issues. Personally, its a sign of abrupt situations tt has caused an effect on the person who decided t ignore. Then, i believe tt this calls for a major clarification for the misunderstanding. Respect comes to the person who chooses n knows how to deal with situations wisely. If u wann t gain the respect of ppl w/o falling in possible mess l8r on in, den deal it rightly. If ur heart is right, n ur conscience clear, there's no need t ignore. Tts how a clap comes abt with 2 hands. If u see dirty hands coming tgt, u'll see dirty outcome. Conversely, if u see 2 clean hands coming tgt, then the issue is outrightly solved. Do ur stuff n i'll do mine. But if u don't make tt effort t resolve it, whether a gd clap or bad clap, it will not come to pass. My heart is right, my conscience clear, vision gleams brightly too. I'm clear who my master is, i don't need anyone t sow doubts in me. I may not be the most matured, but i noe tt maturity comes with the acceptance of responsibility. Shirk ur responsibility, u lose ur character. Gonna run n focus on God, ppl no more. Brokenness is what it takes at this point in life. Brokenness to the heart of God. Reluctance is just humanity, but mortality is reliance.

Love,
Hannah
Brokenness for a greater purpose

Thoughts on my mind

Hey there,

Won't deny the fact tt i woke up glum this morning. Felt abruptly disturbed when i realised tt i've always missed out what ldrs discussed. Mtgs n everything. Its a feelin of frustration n irritation. But when i opened my bible t read God's word, God encouraged me again n again. But as i m, can't help ridding the feel of manipulation on my life. For tt reason, i've promised tt i'll nvr doing smth against my values in life. Hate it when ppl think n treat me like i'm a kid oblivious to what's happening around me. Just shut my mouth to situation n circumstance for the sake the one who mattered most in my life. Then again, just wanna express myself here.. For me to die is gain, for me to live is Christ. Only God can convince me to make wise decisions.

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Hey dudes!

Life's simply awesome with Jesus! I was just thinking n Thinking n Thinking. N i really really really love my life! Its not a perfect life, its not a life everyone would wann t live, but i love it bcos i'm living it. :) the best thing abt my life is being able t own n rule it. And the better thing is tt, taking charge of my life with God is even more exciting! Can't elaborate how excited i am abt the future, can't tell u much in words. Just have t let it show so that it may speak louder than words! :) just watch the Power of the God i have, i love Jesus n i am glad i chose to believe. :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Hi there!

I'm studying @ changi airport @ 2.37am n honestly i'm a little unable to go on. This has been a combination of the non-stop schedule since 5am this morning. N the fact tt i'm doing maths is enough t fully utilise my brain cells. So, i need a hard break. Now, i'm sitting in a cosy corner listening to songs of my parents' generation. Not tt i chose to, but its really quite pleasant moment now. Okays, i'll study in awhile. But first, major hit away from the books are my incessant need t express my thoughts.
Here it goes. With the recent strife at home, i've been considering long enough, n i base my security in 1stly God. Then i'm thinking tt i'm gonna study hard n break free of this crap situation my family n i are in. I wanna live my dreams. To let them live a gd life when i'm well n abled to, moreover, i wanna give my best yrs t God as well. WE're moving outta the place to a better one anyway. GOD IS GOOD. Then, i've also been thinking long n hard enough in the area of relationships n future, how marriage cud be a gr8 or a detrimental thing if not careful. A lesson learnt is 2 choose ur spouse with wisdom, n God's boon. Thought abt it, n i felt tt the best is still 2 wait for God's best arrives. Meantime, be prepared 2b alone all my life. Sometimes it isn't tt bad u noe. I feel tt i've come t put a emotional social barrier over my life as a guard t keep me from falling. Its not fun living a life of suspense n i get irritated at the thought of ppl mistaking me t be interested in them when i'm not. Also, impeccable friendships. But even if i were, i know whr t draw the line n Follow God's time. I don't need all these child's play mentality interfering in the way i do life. I prefer a free n easy life away from tied down emotional solemn. Mum said I was nvr born 2b a sad child, so don't try fitting me into tt. I'm not one 2b meddled with. Try it n you'll noe.

Apart from tt, i really love my life. :) and i won't wan2 mess it up. I'm gg t the washroom now! ;)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

In other words, i love you

Hey!

Its really great to be soaked in the presence of God. I have come with an understanding that nothing else matters more to me than God.

Utada Hikaru - Fly Me To The Moon Lyrics
Album:

Poets often use many words
To say a simple thing
But it takes thought and time and rhyme
To make a poem sing

With music and words I'll be playin'
For you, I have written a song
To be sure that you know what I'm sayin'
I'll translate as I go along

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Won't you let me see what spring
Is like on Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forevermore
'Cause you are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

In other words, please be true
(Please be true, I just want you to be true)
In other words, yeah yeah yeah yeah,
I love you
(I love you, I love you)
Oh oh

C'mon, just take me to the moon and back

Da da da da da da
Da da da da da yeah

I think that this song can be sang to God, its most applicable cause i really like the feel of it, but the lyrics are so meant for God. Indeed, God is a good God, and i will certainly make it through the storms, i have God with me, whom shall i fear, whom shasll i fear?

I had a great time digging into the word of God and am brewing a word sharing for the HoGCyjcians meeting after the promos. Its gonna be reall great and awesome. Its about having the IMPACT of a generation of HOGCYJCians.

Influence
Making things happen
Pray & plan
Attitude & heart
Culture & convictions secured in God
Teamwork

Its really exciting! Gonna continue digging into God's revelations even more! :)

Lvoe,
Hannah
AnEBFG

It was worth it

Hey!

It really was an awesome day. Despite the unending hecticness, waking up at 5am in the morning, fasting for 3/4 of the day.. pressing on with no nap during sch hrs, hanging on during lessons n giving all my energy for cg n prayer mtg. I feel so fulfilled tt i've accomplished smth aft a period of distraught. But today, i'm so assured tt my hope n trust is in God indeed. :) God knows n He understands. I really don't mind living my life not getting married just t build His house. :)

speaking of which, it really distressed me alot t hear my friend telling me tt a guy school mate's nx target was me. Don't think i'm happy. I hardly noe this guy, n It has become a phobia t me especially for a time like this, when i've decided t keep it going in God, n relationships make it an awkward moment for me right now. Besides, i'm not attracted t bgr at this moment, n its really immature 2b always thinking of wanting 2b in a relationship not planning ahead. For me, its really fundamental t understand whr we r going. N pls, i don't need a man t satisfy me. I've my standards too, n not anybody can fit into tt category. So stop pulling my leg, just leave me alone. Tks.

One life, i choose t live it for Jesus. :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Giving mentality is not bad, but sowing is even greater. :)

Hey there! :)

So excited to share so much with all of you! Before i start, i must first warn tt i'm using hp internet, n it might limit my speaking capacity so i might just stop n continue on computer tmr! :) i was doing my qt, n had a revelation from God! Here's it:
There are basically different mentality we can hv when giving t God. But mentioned today specifically is giving mentality, sowing mentality, n calculative mentality.

Giving mentality: expects no returns
Sowing mentality:
Expects a great returns

As i began t seek God n asked him for a breakthrough in finances, in life, He began t speak into my spirit man, and this , was what He said: 'you've been putting yourself in the giving mentality that you don't learn how to sow. That is why many times you pray, but there is no returns. It starts from the point of giving, n ur mentality plays big role big time.' so basically God was challenging me to start switching my mentality from a giver t a sower -in every arena of my need for breakthrough, there's gotta 2b a shift in mentalities.
However, there's a need t understand the heart of a sower before having the mindset of one.
After praying n studying the word,
Sowing -basically means to plant with an intention of having great returns. Its a positive expectation. Dictionary states tt sowing is scattering (seed) on or in earth, plant with seed; initiate, arouse. When we sow, we expect great returns so that more good maybe done. There's no selfish mentality involved, bcos a sower will still sow so long as good can be brought whether or not its to his gain.
That sets a sowing mentality apart from a calculative mentality! To be calculative has a different connotation. Dictionary states tt t calculate is determine before hand by judgement, reasoning, etc; estimate. To calculate is to expect great returns for satisfying one's own selfishness. It does'nt necessarily mean tt bad intentions are done here, but it does not carry a positive connotation either.

And So God has drawn tt thin line between a sower

Looking towards the future

Hi there!

I'm now standing at the crossroad of a junction in amk. I'm headed t the police station. Actually i'm now in the police station. Met Peck lian on the way off church earlier on, n really liked talking with her. Haha. Anw, i think tdae's sermon was really powerful. Pst Lia has always been so anointed n 1day, i will b like tt too. :) anw, i think God's good, did my qt this morning, but God spoke t me during the word tdae. I'm going home t read the word as how God has instructed me t do so. :) gd nights everyone! I'm going t read my bible. ;)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all

And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget.
Weird having this cry. But Nvrm. We'll wait n see over the course of the season. Thank God for mum n gd friends. :)

touchedF0REVER: One time. Who's Justin bieber

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1tss6JPGoM

One time. Who's Justin bieber

whoa.

Finally found the song i was looking for. the thing is that this song sounds great, but i'm just a lil' curious about the artist. :)

Did some research and found out that the dude is only 15 years old!

my goodness. INCREDIBLE. indeed the next generation is rising.. haha


Aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye

Me plus you (I'ma tell you one time) [x3]

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop
And even though its a struggle love is all we got
Ao we gon' keep keep climbin' till the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (and now I've got my)

Chorus:
One love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Lemme tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my number one girl
Always makin time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep
You know that it humbles me,
Your by my side and troubles them don't trouble me
Many have called but the chosen Is you
Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (and now I've got my)

Chorus:
One love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Lemme tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my number one girl
Always makin time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
and I'm gon' tell her one time (one time)
Give you everything you need
Down to my last dime
She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side cause
She is the one

Chorus:
One love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Lemme tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my number one girl
Always makin time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you (I'ma tell you one time) [x3]

After examining this song, i think it is really quite sweet but cheesy for a guy of his age to sing it. Don't you think so? haha. Nonetheless, sounds like a good song. Morally RIGHT> Impressive! found out that this guy had so many opportunity to follow great artists of this age! justin Timberlake, Usher etc. BUT he chose to follow Usher instead. COOL! i think he's gonna have a great future ahead man! way to go Justin Bieber! :)

check youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n1tss6JPGoM

Make it thru the fire

Hi! Wow, just finish my bath! Love feeling clean. :) i saw mum's lotion with this: 'Caress your skin with the romantic scent of true love in a rich, emollient lotion.'
Gags. Honestly, since when hv true love been displayed through scents? Furthermore, LOTIONS?! Haha. Anw, i'm just sitting on my bed, in the cool of the night. Thinking n reflecting on life so far. Feel that i gotta buck up. Gotta run at whr i am. Was so inspired by the city times i read n felt such a calling 2b serving in HOGC. My destiny n purpose t fulfill. :) i will b great one day. Tired but excited for a new day ahead. Haha, gotta arise t study for my gp test tmr! Keep striking the ground, loving God, ppl n life. Gonna win these ppl t God, being faithful in the little things. Dying t myself, surrendering t God every single day. i maybe weak, but its when i'm weak then m i strong in Him. :) gd nite everybody! :) God has promise t build me. And i will b an influence as my spiritual parents has set example t me. I will make it thru the fire with God, for God n in God. :)

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Worship you alone

Your faithfulness, never fails
your faithfulness, everyday
you're the same

unfailing love, sets me free
unfailing love, you lead me
with your hand

and all i know
with your arms around me
your face is all that i see
your love and grace
pick me up and hold me
you alone are Holy

for you alone are great in power
you alone are my strong tower
and i will lift my heart and soul
to worship you alone

for you alone are my desire
you have set my heart on fire
and i will lift my heart and soul
to worship you alone
worship you alone

Don't you love Jesus? i just love Him very very very much. Everytime i hear this song, all hardness of heart and spirit just fades away. Somehow, i was really quite tired yesterday. i slept through all the way til this morning and i almost was late for school. However, the fact is that i did'nt really overslept in that sense cause i woke up at 4.26am in shock and fear. It was a nightmare that woke me. Though i was'nt sure what exactly occurred, i knew that it had caused me to feel uneasy throughout the day. I am a little upset with something, but i just don't really know what exactly. ITs matters of the inside. i guess its disappointments. And there is also a fear, i dunno what it is, just that i feel really really uneasy.

Anyway, after this, i'm going to do a little revising with my work and then i'm going home to do my quiet time. i gotta hear from God. In moments like this, i think its the best to cry out to God. What's the point of crying to man when even sometimes you know they can't really do anything about it. The best person to cry to is still and always be God. I think i'm quite a sombre person, and i can't really blame it because i tend to cry whenever i feel uneasy? Its just that instinct built into me. i guess i was just made that way. Hannah was afterall a woman of God who cried very often anyway... but still she was known as the woman full of grace. What a comfort. God loves me the way i am. :) Yet, understanding me is to know that i cry but i don't admit defeat. That's what God has inclined me to be. Tough not hard-hearted.

Anyway, i foresee a challenging but satisfying journey ahead of me. Now that my interact head has placed me in-charge of this upcoming project that is rather large-scale for a person so insignificant as me in the club. I hold neither post nor role. But God is good i guess, this is an opportunity to do something to influence the rest in interact club. Afterall, i would say there is a certain degree of respect they carry for me. Despite the fact that somethimes the jokes i crack are really not funny, but they entertain.. haha. anyway. i am afterall, uh-urm! a serious person. :) nonetheless, i like the way i carry myself.

Yet, should there be any changes i need to do in my life from God, i will do it. For His sake and none other.

Then we talk about the upcoming busy busy schedule. My goodness! i'm so dead to myself. Nonetheless, i shall conquer. If my leaders can do it, i can do it too. If pastors can do it, i can do it too! Then there's this anxiety welling in me to bring a new friend this weekend!!! Its a personal challenge to me now. Especially when i have no one good target now. Even though i always wished they would be saved, but they still seem so tough to invite. {Just do it Hannah, just DO IT. okays, okays, i surrender all..... i cry. "ONE NEW FRIEND, GOD!" help me....help me... cause all i need is you... GOING HOME TO SEEK GOD!!!} Anxious man.

Hahhs! Albert says he's going for noni's CG tmr! yays! but i need to tell him that i'm not going. hmms. God help me pls!

Alright, finally, i will keep striking the ground! I WILL> even if i am not given the title of a great person, i will LIVE to be great.

:) at the storms always. Adieu

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Hey everybody!

Its so awesome to be me. :) well i was just hanging out with Naomi at cafe cartel just now, think we had a fun time talking abt life, but the most encouraging thing that i got from here was being able to sow into this life. :) think this girl aspires to be someone great in life, but we have to understand that greatness comes from within. Build our characters in God is priority. The rest would fall in place once God is set in first place. Then i was just thinking abt how i've also been taken down from ministries for AE, that's whr 2 corinthains 4:8-9 comes in to set my heart right. I will conquer this through Christ who strengthens me. :) God is good indeed. When i come on my knees, i know he heeds my cry. When i asked God if i'd ever live to do great things in His kingdom, in Hogc, his reply: 'yes, you live to give' wow, it never daunt upon me that i'd be created to give. :) God is good indeed. Then another powerful revelation i had yesterday, asked God how t bring ppl to their point b. As i was sweeping the floor of the admin alfresco, God spoke into my spirit ' others may live life based on the superficial, but i live life based on my character' that speaks alot on how i should build my ppl alrd. :) i love Jesus!

Love,
Hannah
AnEBFG

Some insights on a bus trip

Hey readers!

Finally i have the the time to blog! I came from bugis with Ping lynn and really discovered somethings of ping that i never knew. Anyway just wanna talk abit. :) I was just reading some blogs earlier on, and thought about how people would spend so much time updating their blogs with new skins, and pictures etc. I love them all, but there's something that i have to admit even after going through all the magnificence of the different blogs. I still love my own blog. haha. WHY? i dunno...

After giving it some thought, i still prefer reading my own blog entries, there's nothing much to view on my blog but just words that spurs me moving on. That's what i like about my entries. i realised that it has absolutely nothing to do being proud, egoistic or narcissism. Its more like being comfortable in your skin kinda thing? i have come to realized that a person who cares lesser about how others look at you to be is a person who understands what his/her person to be, there's nothing t be swayed about, and you totally love the things you do. Its a long school of thought, and i'll interpret more about it when i'm free to do so. :) But for now, let me retire for the night. Good night! :)

Love,
Hannah
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Undefined by what others think of me. :) i lead my life the way i want it to be. I hold the power. But i CHOOSE to yield it to God. :)

Hey! I'm On my way home and listening to muttons to midnight. Love listening to their show cos they have a certain level of good humour. But then again, its always better to hear songs of the spiritual. :) well, went for leaders mtg earlier on, and i'm gonna know more about people. I start by first becoming a people's person. So, i'm blogging now! :D met yu hong from B41 earlier on, and really wanna know this person better. Gonna pull him closer. Also, thinking about what Sam shared during cg earlier on, i think its really true that if we want growth, we need to love. Its beyond just the human means of shallow loving. its loving beyond my human capacity. Beyond something i can give as a human. That reminds me of people whom i've not spoken to for ages. Then, i'm still gonna work my way up. Can't afford to let distractions interfere in my life. There's so much more for me to STAND in the gap, but education plays an important role in order for me to come up another level. I wanna come full fledge after i graduate from yjc. I say t God, wait for me, i'm running after you! :) know that in this phase of life, issues get uncertain for me, to be honest, i don't even know if we will still have a roof over our heads. But, i'm not gonna let this stop me from growing stronger in God! Gotta let the brain juice flow man. Speaking of which, also i'm thinking about how pastor How's birthday is approaching, and i really wanna honour him. I hv the best pastors on earth! Not gonna trade the world for them. And i really wanna honour them. Wondering what i can do for them. Haha. Going home t pray abt it. :)

Love,
Hannah
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*today's code: i live my life undefined by what or who ppl place me upon. :) don't be stifled by these obstacle! If there's a will, there'll b a way. But above all these, i CHOOSE to yield my life to God. :)

Knock you down

Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down. Loving is not an easy task, yet i will persist. Yeah not giving up on these ppl, these lives. Even more so, love of my life. Will go on. :)

Something new. :)

Hey!
Now i'm currently inputing my thoughts into here via my handphone! Isn't it cool? Fun aside, now i'm listening t the song new divide by linkin park- theme song of transformers. I think it fits perfectly well for my stance today. I guess my dear friend just does'nt understand. She's too proud t anw. I shan'nt bother abt this person anymore. If she can't take a friend's genuine words seriously, then forget it. I'm just moving on in life, feeling like the biggest loser right now. I'll get over it soon. God is good.
He'll see me through this tough season in life, i gotta start sowing much too. Anw, i was having a great time with Ping lynn hanging out at j8 cafe cartel earlier on. It was great talking abt spiritual things with this girl. She's so gonna grow. :) i'm gonna build Angie, Albert, Kirk n Chun kit strong too! :) its impossible by my works, but totally possible with God! :) there r no boundaries! Then, also i miss hanging out with my leaders. I really feel so out of touch with them sometimes. They went t play bbal! I did'nt noe anything abt it, so sad. But i thank God tt at least time spent today was great with Ping. :) i was thinking earlier on, should i ever get married one day, i'd definitely wanna marry the best person for me, its meaningless coming t realise tt i married the wrong person n end up regretting my decision. I would rather wait for the best than settle for second best. To me, i'd only take the best or have none at all. Thus, i'm gonna start focusing on God n the dreams He's given me. :) i'm gonna work hard, earn lots of money t support church n my family man. I'm also going 2b a Pst nx time! Worship pastor, tts my calling, the dream God has given me. I will not give up bcos of some stupid obstacles in my life. Keep fighting n striving on Hannah!! From God i was born, to God i will return! :)

P.s. I'm gonna live n draw closer t God when i wake up in the morning! Man don't matter no more. God matters more. MC ROCKS! ;)

Love,
Hannah
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how awesome is this place! :)

Hey!

got home for quite sometime already. My immediate response? play a few keys on the piano -to the tune of still. Had an awesome quiet time with God in the park on my way home. Though it was only for a very very short while, i got my focus right back on top with God. :) God has indeed assured me once again that He cares. He will look to my needs when i begin to focus on Him. Know, as i begin to build myself in God in this season, God has been impressing on me time and over again that the further i climb, the more humble i must get. The lesson on being humble in every circumstance. Humbleness. Humbly we began, humbly we end. Now, for more heart to heart session with God after i complete washing the dishes, hanging the laundry, preparing my uniform, packing my schoolbag, and finally bathing, then resting for the night! Gonna LIVE LIVE LIVE! Working even harder than before. that is what pastor Lia said.. to be a sucessful lady, you gotta work like a dog. :) I'm gonna do just that! woking on the 90% of invisible, and the fruit of it will only show as 10%. Hence, if i want my sheep to be really great people in life, i gotta build them a 110% at least, so that they can hit their 100%! :)

Love,
Hannah
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exceedingly abundantly

God is indeed doing exceedingly abundantly all i ever ask think or imagine of.

Yeah, life has been great. how bad could life ever be with God around amen? haha, just wanna talk about the awesome preaching Pst Bernard spilled with us on friday evening and i so look forward to sunday's session! hurray to the optimal, cos i'm on HOPSI! :) close encounter with such a man of God. Thank God. Besides, he is really phenomena! Think about it, so up there in the world, Chancellor of some woohoo association, advisor of one of the richest man in the world! God has indeed blessed this man. i never regret running this race in God. Goodness, i'm so excited, i don't think i can sleep anymore. Life is really on the mundane, but yes, i will live on. :) a higher purpose, and a higher calling in life. One day when i grow up, my life is gonna touch and impact much much more people in this generation. I may be simple and young now, what i own might not attract people, but what i possess certainly draws the crowd to amazement. I'm a princess, mind you. There's no limitation to what and who i shall be. heh heh, a succesful multi billionaire who also serves in church, part time worship pastor, and counselor. :) then,i can also bless so many people when i am blessed. I will fly around the world assisting my pastors in their work internationally, and i will begin to reach out to the people of the nations even further. Therefore, i'm running on this exciting journey in life! God makes life exciting for me!

i may not have what others have, i certainly have what i need. :)

God is good all the time, i love Jesus! love people, love life.

Love,
Hannah
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Esther. a note for you.

To my childhood and certainly beloved sister -Esther.

Here's what i want to tell you if you ever come across this entry.

First and foremost. I've read ur blog entry that reads: on a firm stand.(8July)

i have to say, you're getting better at your english. On another hand, it took me awhile to comprehend the words u used, tone, and all to understand what exactly ur plight is. Of course, God alone is one to judge. But on the other hand, have you ever considered that God is a good God and He certainly want us to be mentored and guided by people that are above us? Yes, sometimes we do get disappointed with them, but i still think that they do deserve a fair bit of respect from us.

Next, i should be one of which "people you used to see on sunday mornings", frankly speaking, peoples' judgements should'nt hold a thorn to you if you really are not as they think it is. Of course i'm not saying that they are perfectly fine and right to judge you, but i feel that sometimes we ourselves should think about ourselves -the way we present ourselves that imply certain indications of who we are on the inside can be given away through how we present ourselves on the outside -smth i learnt since i grown up. It may not be literal, but it certainly is visible. Especially through the way you speak and release words and the approach you take in handling your current circumstances. From this point of view, YOU CERTAINLY NEED HELP.

THINK AGAIN. Are u really seeking God? we know it ourselves best, i care not to spell-it-out. Because i still believe in your genuine need for God to move in your life.

You know you said that it saddens your heart to see a leader taking things into hand in a childlike manner, firstly, its one thing to take it in a childlike manner, its another to take it in a CHILDISH manner. Yet, it saddens me even more to witness this sight of the current you which spurs me forth to write this entry. Whatever ordeal you were referring to i will not pry to understand but i do hope you do come to ur senses what i'm trying to interpret here.

Look, I do agree that whomever you're trying to target this message to in this paragraph, you might have lost your respect. But have you ever considered that respect is reciprocal? Let me honestly ask you, do you really respect yourself in the first place? and, how many people in your life truly respect you. If you have a conscience and would think about it carefully, being respected for you are and being respected for what you are are 2 different response and reaction and it definitely relates differently. And, if you are receiving the same kind of response from people around you, who genuinely care for your welfare, then, maybe the problem really does lie with you.

Also, i definitely beared in mind before typing this. That is i certainly practice what i preached. That is what makes me able to tell you what is on my heart. Yet, it is not lecturing. And i say again, it is not a lecture. Even as i speak to you, i am learning and growing.

Dear me, your poor friend. Do you know one of life's greatest obstacles is to be misunderstood for the wrong purposes? Seriously, what benefit would it be if your friend were to save you from serious trouble rather than see you die? That benefit would only be having you alive. Please, think again. if your friend needs to give you excuses just to gain ur trust, then honestly, it just goes to show how you are as a friend yourself. People reflect the way they react as how you react.Understand?

Then, you thank God for showing u ur friend's true colours. Let me tell you honestly, everybody has a good and a bad side. But why does it have to be that when ur friend's with you, you see her bad side? And having said that, how has that made you stronger in anyway? by hardening your heart even more??? It definitely is against God's will to bring you on a spiral downwards.

Then, we go back to where you came from. Boy, why did you let ur shut mouth eat from within? You knew where all these were going did'nt you. Why did'nt you pick the right time to say the right things at the right time? than to say the right things at the wrong time which perhaps, has resulted in a big NO NO. Then, i ask you what exactly is wiser way of putting ur point through by voicing it on ur blog? Won't that seriously conjure more misunderstandings? Won't ur readers think of you as not being able to put it on a face to face basis? To me, people who resort to bloggers communication really are cowards. I mean, if you have to stoop to this level to tell people you are not happy with them, it just goes to show that you're not happy with them, but you can't tell them face to face because of some reasons. Well, i dunno what that is, but it certainly is not of a thing i would do to pose my attacks on.

Facts and logic? You need the TRUTH not those.

And who has labelled you atrociously as whatever is it? I certainly have not. I love you no matter what has become of you today, you're always that friend i grew up with playing swings, chatting, playing and all. Yet, one thing i need you to know, you are who you think you are. Nobody can ever label you if you do not accept their marks on your life. You be what you want to be because in life, these are just limitations, but if you choose to believe in God seriously, there'll be no limitations. Think about it seriously.

Honestly speaking, as a friend watching you, the thing about you is that you've never rally changed you see. Its just that you've been controlling yourself utmost emotions, suppressing it within in the past. There is an obvious difference between releasing it, and becoming wiser or mature, because if you were really mature and wiser now, the way you respond to the circumstances in your life, would be totally different. Yes, you may be an unique individual, i agree. But i bet a 100 times with you, if a matured individual facing the same plight as you, would have taken things differently, turning away from what i call, a cyclic pattern. Its a vicious cycle.

Think about it, if you're really not naive, blur and the old you, would you be where you are today? you probably would have walked into the destiny God absolutely planned for you.

For your information, the sun does shine all the time. I'm serious. Its clouds that comes in place that will block the sunshine from us. BUT, it is what that is within you that will cause you to fly above the storms that make you remarkable. On note, my advice to you, accept responsibility.

Finally, to end it off here, i do love you and hope the best for you. Whether this hits you hard anot, i do hope it shakes some sense into you. If i had not cared for you, i would'nt have typed this note. Catch my heart girl, i mean you well. This would not benefit me in anyway at all. Infact, being so busy in life, i don't have to entertain such a childish note from you. but as a matter of fact, i love you that is why i'm doing this regardless of what you may think of me. I could have slept in preparation of a powerpacked busy day tomorrow, but if i were to sleep and not do something, as a friend, i fail to hang out with you, even more, as a spiritual sister, i totally fail.

Let me tell you honestly, i believe in the power of God, and i strongly believe that God has placed you in my life for a reason. I have been praying for you recently above the countless names i pray on the list, you are one special one. Don't doubt my heart for you, but seriously think and consider before your next response. The lifetime of opportunity comes with an opportunity of a liftime. Won't you truly start to seek ur purpose and find ur place in God? you're smart, and a logical person, i believe you can make the right decisions in life. Above all these, i believe in you.

Love,
Hannah
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What a pleasant surprise!

Whoa.

It was totally mind-blowing to have Dr A R Bernard in our church today!! IT totally blew me away. jaw-dropped when he mentioned those theological features. I mean, i could go on listening and not getting tired of it. Besides, he is really the pst of a 30000 over member church.Mind you! He's only a part time pastor! haha. Inspiring indeed. Oh alright man, i'm so glad that the CEG has brokethrough attendance of over 60, indeed, we own half our faith target now, the our Cg has lighter burden! :) Alright, back to issues of the heart. this week, was'nt really as abundant as other weeks, but lo and behold, the future's always more amazing! I'm gonna go on preaching and talking about the wonders of God. :) That's my life calling i guess. See, i have completely yielded my life to God for whatever HE wants me to do for Him. Of Course God is a good God and He would want me to suffer voluntarily -sacrifice. A call to living an others-centred life. When i heard he dreadful news from Pst Kong,i knew that my heart would just sink at the thought of wanting so much to reach the other part of the world that is in need. There and then, i purposed in my heart, that i may not have gold or riches right now to bless that nation in need, but when i grow up, i will surely have my part in giving to these. Besides, i would also have the ability to go out into the lands where love is needed most. I would also be the hands and feet that Jesus needs for my generation of people in need. God will take the best years of my life and make it His, set forth to break it, mould it as according to His will, plans and glory that i will begin to multiply. In His kingdom, i will remain. In His empire, i will continue to grow as i continue to build. God is good all the time. He knows the desires of my heart and He knows what i need and what i do not need. The Lord is my shepherd i shall not want. But i will seek First His kingdom and His righteousness, that what i need will be added unto me.

Know yesterday, i made a trip down to Cineleisure to visit one of my sheep but she was'nt there. I took that opportunity to do smth else anyway. On my way home, i saw 2 person fighting beside the busstop. I guess this 2 persons were related by blood. They were punching and pulling each other's hair. Mind you, the guy looks younger than the female, but he punched her anyway. They were really rowdy, and i walked past them heart full of emotions welling within. I felt that i could dial for police anytime. In the end, i missed it, they stopped fighting and came to the bus stop anyway. There was a minor tiff after awhile, but it died off eventually. The woman boarded the bus and left while the man or boy just disappeared from the vicinity.

Know as i was observing both of them, i could just tell that they were'nt really educated people. But beyond that, i knew that i would never have a relationship that will end up like that. See, be it they were mother and son, or husband and wife, i never would want t use violence in my family. no doubt we may not get along well with each other sometimes,but i will commit and i make a pre-made decision here and now that i will not use violence to try resolving my issues. I think that it is really important that violence should never be induced into a family. The bible says that a gentle answer turns away wrath, and it takes two hands to clap. i would definitely heed the voice of God in any heated situations and not act on impulse should i ever get into serious circumstances with anybody next time. I will not let that happen in my friendships, furthermore my relationships with my family or anybody else. Also, that's why though sometimes when i seem 2b very violent, attempting to punch someone(for fun), i will nvr be ale to bring myself to hit the person hard cos its just not me to attack people. Even mum said that i've been like this since young. I'm a gentle kid. :) Thank God for that.

Also, i believe that God has a great destiny for me, why should i let them all lie in waste because of violence right? wisdom holds it that gentleness overwrites. :) Also, another important virtue i'll carry in life in any relationship i have especially with my future husband would be trust. No matter what, i will always trust and support my husband. :) I may eventually end up not marrying someday, but trust is essential in any relationship and that is what i seek to own. :) I TRUST YOU
:)

Love,
Hannah
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So inspired to climb these spiral stairs :)

HEY!

Feel so encouraged man! Was just talking to one of our regulars in my connect group and was actually checking her database details to talking about spiritual stuff. I think it was really good, as i spoke with her, i could sense an openness in her spirit. And i'm so spurred to draw her closer. i basically shared and encouraged her to pray and seek God to ask Him how He wanted her to reach out to people. The specific steps. I shared with her about the different encounters we can have to hear God's voice. Then somehow i just shared with her about getting the devotion "Everyday with Jesus for new christians". She really wants to get it and began to build her foundation in God espcially in this season of her life where she needs God the most. I was so inspired to climb these sets of stair to leading people towards God, seeing their lives changed for God for a lifetime. Their step into a great destiny spurs me even more. Tomorrow, is another life touching moment. I'm gonna pray for anointing tonight to bring my sheep to another level. i was also so encouraged to hear this regular wanting to keep drawing closer to God, and sharing her life stories with me, about her close encounter to knowing God when she was little and all, and how hungry she was for the word of God. This life, is gonna be touched, saved and used to be glorified for God! I will personally witness the growth of this spiritual scene. :) its coming forth! Rise up further! :)
Oh! gotta share with you smth on my heart too! :D nth spiritual abt this just that it encourages me to know that God recognises what's precious on my heart. haha. I've always yearned to be an impactor of ppl's life. Where ppl would just be inspired by me, and be encouraged or inspired to be just like me, running this race with me :)

Today, i met this girl Zhou jie who wanted to know me since i know when. haha, it felt so good to have inspired one person that out rightly expresses her longing to be my friend. :) Zhou jie, you rock man. haha, you've encouraged me to come higher in God to impact more lives. Thank God.

Love,
Hannah
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My greatest love is you

MY GREATEST LOVE IS YOU
HILLSONG Key: D
Worship


D
EVERY NEW DAY
YOUR F#m7
GLORY UNFOLDS
G2
FILLING MY EYES
WITH YOUR Asus
TREASURES UN A
TOLD
THE Bm7
BEAUTY OF F#m7
HOLINESS
BRINGS G2
WORSHIP A F#m7
NEW
Em7
MY GREATEST Asus
LOVE IS D
YOU A/C#


CALL ME G
DEE Dmaj7/A
PER
Em7
INTO YOUR Asus
GRACE A

THE Bm7
RIVER THAT F#m7/A
FLOWS
FROM THE Em7
HOLY Asus
PLACE A

G
WASH OVER ME
Dmaj7/A
CLEANSING ME THROUGH
Em7
MY GREATEST G/A
LOVE IS D
YOU

This song touches on the depths of my heart. the things that i've always wanted to express. the most powerful to me, is the line that emphasizes that my greatest love is God. no matter what happens, no matter come what may Jesus i love you. :) That's the song i wrote isn't it?

Jesus, I love you:

You were always there
no matter where
everytime
even though

sometimes my heart may waver about
yet you caught me
and you cared for me

Jesus i love you
i love you
i will live my life for you
no matter come what may

Jesus i love you
i love you
forever i will worship you
forever i will say
Jesus i love you

simple but speaks my heart of commitment and love for God. :)

Love,
Hannah
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Giving into God's kingdom!

Good afternoon!

i woke up feeling light and chirpy this morning! i had a great time yesterday after encountering God, hearing Him and obeying Him. :) I was challenged to give God my all, in terms of my next month's pocket money, also an hour of quality time to God as well. :D Its a breakthrough of my life NOW> the turning point of a mundane life into a life full of purpose! :D People work's great, also when God say He takes care of it, He really takes care of things amen? haha, so spurred to climb up another level and not return to square one again. :D Yesterday, was so funny cos i met Ivan on the journey home! :) I love hanging out with my leaders. i learnt something even though we did'nt talk much, but i learnt a characteristic of a leader is to love people! Though Ivan was feeling unwell, he let me sit on the available seat. When i gave up the seat to him, he rather let the old man sit. haha. So giving. i want to be like that too. Giver mentality! :) Also, i did quiet time this morning, i was praying for people, i just felt God moving another level on. Though i felt my self like peter walking on water, staking my life for God, i know that God will take care of my needs when i give Him my best. :) had a bible study session about the armor of God, not done yet, but really am heeding the voice of God's instruction in building His empire. Know that it is more than the physical, so this season touches on the spiritual area. :D God is good all the time! :)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
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Powerful life story

Hey there!

Earlier on, i was just preparing to go to Desiree's place to work out and swim in the morning, but then, my sis took the house keys and locked me up at home. So, i had no choice but t stay at home. I was pretty frustrated initially, but i managed to calmed down and not let my emotions affect my reactions. I went to slp. After falling asleep and waking up, God spoke into my spirit telling me to pray for the Connect group as i had promised. haha,i mean, if i promised God, i should do it right? As a result, i prayed there and then, covering every name in my connect group. Somehow, God led me in my spirit to pray for them for things i have never seen before. It was like revelation and i begin to see how God could lead me to pray for the individuals. yet, i can't reveal it out, but just keep praying. I am so going to cling onto God and His spirit to guide me on. In the next few hrs, before i leave to Desiree's house, i will be hanging the laundry and probably catching up a little on econs. But meantime, before i go off, this is the highlight of today:

MY REVELATION :)

I was praying and seeking God for greater understanding to His word, and an encouragement from Him that will spur me on this track of life. God gave me Genesis 39:3. This verse encouraged me and spurred me on to keep reading on to the next verse and so on. It says: "And his master saw that the LORD was with him, and that the LORD made all he did to prosper in his hand"

you know , just a brief background of this passage, is that Joseph was sold to Egypt by his brothers because the were jealous of him as his father loved him the most. Yet, in this misfortune, Joseph never gave up drawing closer to God, at the same time, God never gave up on Joseph, in fact, we can see that God has been protecting Joseph through his life. In this particular verse, it hit me that the reason why Joseph found favour in the eyes of men is because God's favour upon Joseph was so strong that everything that Joseph touched became prosperous. :) Joseph must have had a deep and strong connection with God that the touch of God became so obvious to the people around Joseph, to the extend whereby even Potiphor (Joseph's master) could see that the Lord was with Joseph and God had made everything prosper in his(Joseph) hands. Isn't it awesome to have a God that will want good for us in every　way? ：）

Today, my heart's cry is to let God show so strongly in my life that people may see for themselves that God is good, and with Him in my life, i will prosper in everything that i do. :)　How about you today?

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
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touchedF0REVER: To know your name

touchedF0REVER: To know your namehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnvlpNVQocw&NR=1

touchedF0REVER: To know your name

touchedF0REVER: To know your name http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnvlpNVQocw&NR=1

To know your name

Hey there

I'm home alone with the dog right now. I was sitting at the table screening some kind of American reality tv show on fashion. I was just thinking to myself on the things that occurred in my life. I just started to see how much a scar can matter so much to a person's life. I was just wondering to myself how sad it is to be defined by society. To not have your own voice but to be miserable about what people see and think about you. I thank God that i'm born His. I thank God that i'm born in this royal family, and its royal blood flowing through me. Also, i was thinking abt the revelation that i got from yesterday while i was touched by God during Charleston's revival meeting. This season, i really sense God picking us up again. Built into spirituality. That's the season that God has knitted into my spirit. That is why i was so anguished when i saw the people not seeking God from their hearts. I don't know how to explain it, but sometimes, it really discourages me as a leader to see that my people are no longer hungering for the presence of God. Yet at the same time, i realized that my touch with God has been pull apart too. I too, need to come closer to the Heart of God. God has indeed revealed the things of the spirit to me in my spirit, but i have been too human and not trusting in Him. That is why i failed to recognize the voice of God. Then again after service yesterday, i encountered God once again and His peace has descended upon me, guiding me and showing me to another realm in the spiritual. This is what i wrote in my journal:

Today was really powerful and a breakthrough. It was Charleston preaching for today's(yesterday)service and it hit on being a generation of people that would begin to hit our potential. Spirituality is another hit point and now i believe that God has indeed spoken to me clearly. I was the unsure being over here. Yet, i need to continuously press on, hearing on the voice of God. In my spirit i could hear a heave of encouragement from God that have what it takes to come up to greater heights. There's something special about me that very rare people have. Its the touch of God, the anointing and calling that God has upon my life. The devil tries hard enough to seize it from me, yet i will stand strong for my God. To me, God says: "since you have such an asset, won't you take it and run with it, giving Me your Best will and potential to run on this heritage I have given you. multiply it. Don't let go of it because it is the touch of God upon your life. My stand -YES. I will Run with it, safeguard it and align it with my life. Setting my heart right.

Here's what Go spoke to me while Charleston touched me spiritually as he prayed for the leaders. God said: "I'm EXPANDING YOUR HORIZON" I asked Him a few questions, though i can really remember, but all i remembered were questions that He just nodded His head and said "uh-hmm, uh-hmm" That was how GOd responded to me. :)

God has seized my burdens, lightened my load and given me His yoke.
i will seize every moment now, tightening my belt and growing even more in Him

Even for the issues on my heart, God says He'll take care of it.
Therefore, I have NOTHING TO FEAR! :)

God is good, all the time

I WILL LIVE TO BUILD HIS KINGDOM, HIS EMPIRE AND THIS ZONE.

love,
HannaH
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Excited! can u feel the buzz? :D

Hey There!

i'm so excited about this season man. I think it was really a breakthrough. I meant i totally enjoyed hanging out with the new people like Angeline and Joy. Went crazy to the MAX> together with Desiree dance moves and debates..boi! We sure are another bnch of crazy people man! But i think today was great too. Pst Troy preached in the service abt prayin in the spirit. i Thank God for hearing my cry. It was just that as i was praising and worshiping, i started to feel like a lousy person like not being able to get my people to come for service or what, also felt like such a failure in not being able to lead my sheep closer to God in the spiritual realm. Also felt that the new batch of people were not as open to things of the Spirit, and i was just discouraged and at my wits' end. I simply came before God in the worship and humbly surrender all to God telling Him that i trust everything into His hand. I am helpless. Then as i heard Louisa's testimony, God comforted me in my spirit that He is there. I think God's really cool, and no matter what the world may offer, i seek no reason why i should trade anything else for God. Born into this family, love in this family. God is Great and no matter what, i will keep drawing closer to Him. everything and anything can fail me, but God never fails. Nothing can ever draw me away from God, not even the person who stands close to my heart. That's my decision, my pre-made decision. For even if i never get married one day, i become an old hag, i will never leave God because of my insecurities. Yup.

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!!

An ordinary day

Hey!

Yup yup yup. Its an ordinary day today. Talk abt the trip to Ajc after powerhouse. Boi, the heat and the heatiness from within. i was bedridden for a few hours figuring out how i could make myself feel better with the heat within, and the dryness that covered me. Hot day. Anw, met owner of fashion store 77th street, Elim Chew. Really liked the way she presented things. Gonna be like her one day. Love the way she leads life. I'm gonna be like this one day. I will certainly live through an ordinary day an extraordinary life! Life's gonna be exciting and FUn! Think i caught the flu bug. boi. need to rest well and live life to the fullest. Studying hard this vacation to get out of the god-forsaken school. Move on to another level in life. :)I may not have what others have, i certainly have what i need to have.

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTIRKING!!!

Living life charging! :)

Hey there,

just wanna say that i have no time to update too man things. Just wanna highlight that Aunt's gone to China, left her laptop with me for 8 days. Also, recently i've been growing stronger in God. Running with a clear vision and purpose in life. I will rise up further. I will live for Christ. Also, i miss Pastors and Rinnah as they are taking a tip away from this land, i really miss them all. :) BUt anyway, i'm really tired. gonna KO anytime soon :) Gd nite! Busy but still loving life!

Love,
HAnnah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!!

hahhs Thinking about life

Hey there,
on reception duty right now. was just thinking abt service today! haha, i think it rocked. As i was sitting there, i was just thinking about the song that i wrote years ago. it goes like this:

Sat in my room, thinking bout the world today
all that happened, and all that is left to say
this time, i think about the life i lead
yesterday tomorrow and today

all of my life, what has its meaning to me?
everytime i'm doing something
and everytime i see, its meaningless to me
the things i do, the way i go just goes on and on...

but suddenly i see the picture coming in
the meaning of my life is found (whoo)

you're the only one, i need
Jesus Christ the one, i seek
tell the whole world that
you're the risen one
who shed your blood and gave your life
for the meaning of my life

you're the only one, i need
Jesus Christ the one, i seek
tell the whole world that
you're reason i live for
You're the meaning of my life

.......................................................

I think that this song really speaks a lot from my heart, and it expresses my thoughts and emotions that will allow me to pull through the tough times in life. i once remebered that i was told that i was a fast thinker and that God could use me because i was a thinker. That line has impacted me since and allowed me to believe in myself that i could carry out tasks that i always thought i was incapable of doing. I have purposed in my heart that i will live up to God's expectation of me. What He has pre planned for me in this walk of life, and no matter what the outcome of life may be, it certainly will be a great one. Whether or not God's promise to me comes true, i will live an extraordinarily fun and interesting life, exciting and godly life! MY GOD WILL NEVER FAIL ME. i may be young now, i may seem immature to the eyes of some, sometimes even i feel that myself, but God's given me confidence and assured me that i'll turn out greater than what anyone could imagine. Its beyond their expectations. :) I'm gamed for it man! Alright man! :)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!!

Right now (nanana)

heycha!

Right now in the school library. Think its really cool. I like the life i'm living this week. Busy but fun and Exciting. Though the only bad thing is that i've been late for two days already. i'm in danger zone. But i'm gonna make things happen. Gonna wake up n be early for school. haha. I can't get into anymore stupid toruble anymore man. ON THE VERGE OF GETTING INTO SERIOUS TROUBLE. haha. Okays, i think church's so cool these days. We've a new bbal hoop in church, was playing with the people in church bbal ytd after hospi duty. My pastors can shoot well man. Besides, i think Ivan shoots well too. haha. MY leader rocks! haha. wanted to go home with Ivan and the rest, but because i had to go home asap, i coould'nt afford to wait for the bus any longer. :( if it were the weekends, i would definitely hang out with my leader! i think i really enjoy times i spend in church. I love serving Pastors and my leaders. Pastor Lia is so nice. She stopped too even show concern for me. haha, my face is bad. I need to consult aunty Yan Ping. Its what Pastor told me to do! haha. yesterday rocked!! :) Red Rain! ROCKS! :D xD wanna go church Right now (nanana)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
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Likes this day, but Loves the future even more! :)

HihIhi! :D

I love the future. I can't wait for the day i rise uo and be a part of the dream team. :) I love working around pastors. I love working around my leaders. :) It is great having wonderful pastors who saw what could have blossomed in us. haha. Can't wait can't wait. His promises will definitely come to pass. :D

LOve,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
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Feeling empowered! :)

Hi there!

I feel so empowered! it must have been the lack of sleep that caused my heart to feel so heavy. haha, i feel awesome now. i've waited on God, and yes God has spoken to me in His still small voice. Yet, i need to further wait on Him that i may fully catch what He wants me to hear. haha, i think living a life with God is really great. I think its really awesome having Jesus in my life and i'm gonna fly and breakthrough in LIFE! :) God will bring me through. Anw, i was sitting on the bus yesterday evening after i spoke to this guy from school who alighted before me. He is Gets's friend. but anyway, i heard God speaking into my spirit after he alighted the plans that he has for this young man. God shared His strategies with me, or rather, the things he would want me to do to take this guy higher in Him. i think God is good. He knows me from the inside out and he knows of what capacity i'm able to hold. God is good, and He will never leave me nor forsake me. God rocks, and He will see me through. :) Soon, i'll be writing my revelations on His word over again. Its the season to be back to BASICS. God is gonna build on my foundations again. :)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!!

WHA sian :( yet EXCITED abt REDRAIN :)

hey there.

A little bit sian here today. Didnt go to school again today. think i need some time alone. Right now i feel myself stuck with somethings that i can't contemplate either. i woke up this evening trying to figure out what exactly i'm sian about. i feel my spirit dampened. i feel my mood getting down over the days. and it swings from one end to another end. Lost my purse. money, nric and most precious, my photographs that are inside. hmms. sian sian sian. ALso there are other issues of the heart lah. but that's between me n God alrd. Still, i'm not ready to let things go n fly by just like that. i will live a life that's great so long as i live. I hv one life, i'm gonna live it right. nobody's gonna decide what i want to do. Nobody's gonna decide my destiny. Only God can. but still, its between me and God to draft things out and see where my future leads. cya.


Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!

the days are always AWESOME :)

YO YO!

I'm so excited today!!! haha, had a nice long chat with mum. I love my mummy! When she's soak in God's presence especially. amazing woman of God. haha. WISE. :D Cos i was really disturbed by this guy from FCBC who has been preaching the word of God to people around in school. No offence to him, and greatest respect. But i was just disturbed. Yet, i had no idea how i should handle this guy. When i shared with mum. WOO HOO> Champion. not gonna go into great details what mum shared, but just say those things she really impacted me with. She taught me how to quote scriptures back to challenge this guy. He asked faith-filled, if we believed that our school can become a missionary school in 2 years. I had no idea how i should reply him with wisdom, without hurting him. mum said that i should ask him if he actually heard it from GOD. If that was really what his pastor said, and what he heard from God. Then mum also went on to there's a season for everything. When Jesus was alive, He did'nt go every where to preach to people because there is a season for everything. The scripture mum quoted was the story about Jesus healing the lame man, and He warned that man not to tell people that Jesus healed him. Firstly, why did Jesus do that? Because He knew that Seeds would have be sown to doubt. That man disobeyed Him, as a result, this caused Jesus to not be able to do God's work in that land. The will of God was not fulfilled because of that man's big fat mouth. Wow. Mum's awesome. Want her brain someday. haha :D

Speaking about personal revelation, God is so good, to have encouraged me over and over again. As i ws in service, God show me so many visions to lift my spirit which was dampened by issues of the world. For example, school, and the house issue. I am really quite bothered by these 2 issues. But, God saved the day! He really lifted me higher!!! He also spoke to me of something else. But i shan't say anything about that for now. I will wait til it has come to pass then will see. :)

Anyway, i'm so gonna impact my world. Rather, i'm gonna sleep first!! good night!!

p.s i miss Brenda. haha, she's so cute. like a younger sister to me. :DD

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

and i say it to myself.. what a wonderful day! ;D

Hi there!

I think its really awesome havign to be able to spend a long day in church. Without having to slp the past few nites proper. Know recently i've been playing sims2 and i think its really addictive.
haha, But today, God challenged me to give Him my best again.
haha. Like God, i am so willing to. haha, so i'm so gonna cut down playing sims2, but love people, life and God even more. There's so many reasons why i'm so joyful today!
Firstly, talk about Angie. Phenomena. Told her to call me, she did'nt but anw, Over the so many days, i was'nt able to really talk much to her, thus, i could only visit her at her workplace. though situation might not seem as ideal, she's coping well, but she made it to church even w/o having me to check with her whether she was coming anot. I think it is really really cool. i think i'm just gonna hang out with her on tuesday or wednesday afternoon. We'll see how it goes. haha
I really wanna spend sometime with her, but anw, i think its a sign God is putting in my life to start praying fervently for people. Praying specifically, cos when i do so, God's power starts falling into place again.

Secondly, Rinnah is so cute! Adorable kid! Like my little sister!! haha, i love Rinnah man! Reminds me of myslef when i was little. haha, So many things about her to talk abt. Just have to say it in person. So, not going much into that. :D

Thirdly, I was just hanging out at Admin office after service, waiting for Debbie to finish her ops briefing. Apparently it was pretty long, so i just stood ther playing with Rinnah. Pst Lia saw and greeted me. It was the best greet my pastor would ever give to me. haha, it made me feel really welcomed. Especially like i felt like i was part of the dream team in the office!

Fourthly, going home with Ivan and gang ws really fun. haha. I think i treasure such times alot. whr we get to know people from other zones. I love hanging out with hui min. She is another song maniac man. My my she knows the songs of my generation. haha. I love traveling home. :)

Finally, Visiting Angie gave me that sense of fulfillment. Like, At least i was doing something to show angie that i love her and cared for her. I'm so challenged to jsut start encouraging the people around me through little things int he next few days.

Haha, what an awesome awesome day. God has challenged me to come closer and to rise up higher. i'm so gonna breakthrough in freedom, and achieve the best through the best of my availabilities, and serving Jesus til the end of time. I will remain in Christ. Serve in Hogc for the rest of my time. HOGC is my home.


OH! I gotta talk with my people about my revelation. Next step is to chllenge Angie to give God tithe regularly, Albert to come for CGs, Angel to come above busy schedule. Above all these is to pull them closer to my heart, and God's love. :)

i love God, people and Life! ;)
i hope you do too!

Love,
HAnnah(TEN)2.0
KEEPSTRIKING!!!

Hmmms. What a day.

Hey there!

haha,finally able to blog again!
haha, sad thing is that my internet has crashed at home. But anyway, that's not the point. haha, i'm now at gramps. mymy. he has a new fridge... so cool. It can dispense water directly from the door. :D i've got lotsa catching up to do. My work... hais. i need to get into the local university!! haha, okays gotta go! Fighting against all odds! :) Tata!YJC revival!! haha yayS!

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

So embarrassing!

Hi!

juSt came home from bbaling at BCC, or what's that u call it. haha. I dunno exactly know why i feel so emotional but aft a break at Macs, my Yj friends n i decided to go to the nearby bbal court t play bbal. Yeah, we played all the way til 720pm odd. :) The most embarrassing inccidence occurred while playing bbal with outside guys. One of the guys was wearing a yellow gabrielite shirt, while another a blue one and yet another who was in black from head to toe. Well, whole time thru the game, i was marking this black guy shirt. It was to the point that we began joking around in the midst of the game.Personally,i think he was pretty cute n good looking. But it was so awkward playing bbal cos there were so many awkward occurrences during the game between him n myself. Not particularly his fault, but i felt so stupid. Should hv worn my jacket along when playing bbal. I forgot. I did'nt realised it would be such a rough game. hmms. Anw, what to do? Its not his fault neither mine. Haha, just hopes that if we meet nx time, we can be good friends. haha, not remembering the awkwardness. let's just move on in life man. :)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

Crazy crazy day!!!!

Hahahaha!

Whoa.... haha, it was quite a dose of humour today...
haha. PSt Sy Rogers was really really good. haha, he's really humourous. And he's also very engaging. haha, like when he speaks, i really don't feel that time flies.Besides all the Sy talk, that whoa! Occupied me, there was this particular inccidence that occurred on the train. haha, Fedora, Wenqi, Jiajia, Deleon, Peishan n her friends tgt with Alton n the otr guy were on the train tgt. haha, we were heading to towards Cityhall. Anw, what happen was that there was this man who outta the blue screamed in the train, saying "Okok, Enough! Shh...." we laughed. "Okok, i know i know... i know what you're laughing at" We laughed. "my wife tell u to behave..." (wife tuggs at his sleeve) haha, so funnie rite? haha, can't imagine how his wife lived with him. The whole point abt it is that we were'nt noisy in the first place.
haha, but being provoked, we just got noisier by nature..
Anw, whole point is dont mess with YOUTHS.
Yeah i'm turning in NOW. haha, i think parenting is really gonna be so fun n so cool! haha, but First, its get married, then mate.
haha my my, ppst Sy's so cute. haha. i'm so looking forward to getting married to the one i love. haha, but for now, i really wanna enjoy my youth and give my best For Jesus Christ! i love Jesus all my life. :) Its a pact, a promise. A journey i will stick to no matter what.

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

Impossible to find

Hey there,

I just returned home from a wasted trip to mediacorp.hmms, should hv gone there earlier. now the receptionist has kept all scripts off and away from the convenience of the cisco guards..
haha, nvrm. Shan't be so small abt life anymore. Today Pst How preached a great sermon on offence. How offence can actually lead to a person's downfall. I think it really was powerful except for the point on which i was really falling asleep. I bet Pastor must hv seen it. But its the problem of my reflexes. I hv to work smth abt it. hah, anyway, CVD was quite successful today. I could hv told u so much if u were there today. We had our freaking principal dunked into the dunking pit, but could'nt get up and out of it. It was really embarrassing. Haha, but she's quite nice to patronize our stall in the canteen. Anw, the whole point i'm happy abt is that the products were sold!!! YES! ALL WERE SOLD. :) And besides, i'm glad that Yu hang and team won their talentime thingy! So proud of them man. They are my dearest from 125! 125 Rocks! haha, but i feel that i need to have this with B4. We need to build that strong bond with each other. haha. Anw, we also had Ivan talking with us abt having our Live, Processes in place so we can really do well i the JC. haha Its really true especially facing the temptation of having so ,uch fun etc. But i have decided to LIvE, be Spiritual, and have processes in life. I'm gonna do well for my A levels and get into a really good sch. :)I will keep going on in Christ! Cya~

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

Alright man. Keep fighting on.

hey,

So much has happened, now hdb wanns to take our home away from us. dad's the cause of it. Just don't understand how these ppl ever think it possible to take what is not theirs anymore. Or ever consider disrupting the lives of their children for the sake of other ppl's children. its really absurd. but it does'nt mtr anymore. Cos my decision's final. I will continue to battle on. And no matter what it takes for me t get into the local uni, i will. To work against what has been preset of me by my dad. I will definitely walk against the example a failed dad has set for me. i will not walk in his footsteps. I mean it, and i will do it. By God's strength, i will conquer n overcome. :) Adieu. jia yo darren. jia yo, hannah. jia yo evryone. :)

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

Haha, Great day! Let's Live life forward, Learn from the Past.. :)

Hi there!

Today, i was really puctual for school. I managed to pull through every lesson without slping, and i think i really grew from ytd. Well, i was late for school again, and it was alrd the 2nd time. Each person is given a grace period of only 3 times. thereafter, is a cahnce forfeited for suspention, possibly barred from my yr end promos.
but sometimes i really feel that its unfair to implement such strict rules for late coming. Its not like we deliberately wanna go to sch late. But sometimes we really mug late into the night. I think that this treatment is really unfair for people who live far from sch, and also pays an interest in what they are doing. I mean, if sch were'nt so strict with this late coming issue, or made situations more convenient, then, i bet we'll all know how to be better students. And being barred from our promos is another extreme measure taken to punish students who bother to come to sch despite their punctuality. take for example the fact that i could have gone to the clinic, fake an illness and collect a useless piece of paper which can save me the chance of being barred from taking my exams. i could have, honestly, more often than not, i witness my friends doing that, adn that's how they manage to save that so called "chance" to sit for their exams. I mean, isn't the college's mission to nurture leaders with passion and INTEGRITY?? would a college student ever learn to have integrity with no chance of learning, and cheat the whole system because of mere fear for not taking his/her examinations? You call that passion? or passion with no integrity? if i were the pricipal, i would have preferred the student who came t school even though he/she knew the consequences he/she had to face. Rather than having a student who chose not to face with consequences and chooses to escape this by buying M.Cs for the sake of escaping this "severe" penalty. Is this worth the effort? Is this worth it? By removing a student who could have potentially be the next top student, a great leader of the future, just because of turning up at school despite knowing the consequences one has to face? Come on. at this level, who would be so stupid as to not know there are ways to escape from facing the music, but to face it willingly? Higher authorities, think and consider this. Besides, this student has got no records of being a bad student or whatsoever. Should such severe penalty be implemented into the junior college system? This day i ponder about this.

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

Great Harvest!

Hi there!

Firstly, yayness for having an internet connection at home like.... FINALLY!!! thank God thank God thank God man!!! haha, God must have heard my long, persistent prayer for this. haha. I seriously think that life's great. now that i have great class of people in class. Though sometimes they may really be too opiniated, but overall, i think this class is a class i can run together with and reallybuild a genuine strong friendship! haha. Consider this, i've sat in class and observed the whole class interaction for moments in my life, and though really at certain times i get quite irritated at the way things are being handled, i thin the class overall has a sense of unity. For that,i put my vote on 125! We rock! After a few bonding sessions with them on friday, i got to personally know a few guys(also includes girls) in my class, and i really see them needing the touch of a genuine friendship. Boy it's so amazing how some of them can really be quite others-centred. And again for that, i love 125. :)

okays, back to back this few days really have been quite a kick start for the year 2009. :) Perhaps, i will say its a good start. For the last few days i've really been putting alot of focus on ppl work. i mean hanging around classmates, faith integration and even like chatting with outcasted ppl. Trying to pull them and include them into my circle. Perhaps, that's what i'm born for. a team player.

Today, heartfest 09 took place.it was phenomena, and i was really impressed when i heard that this event was really planned by the bulk of zone f ppl. They are small ppl with big hearts, and capabilities. i say they are truly awesome. wells, anw, incase u might b wondering what i was doing at a zone f event, wells, i was there to help out. Like to be a team leader and guide the ppl who came for the event just to make them feel comfortable, adn a part of the team. :D its like orientation number 2, just that its a smaller scale and a one day event. there's this small guy i came to know when i first said hi to him. he was only 11 yrs old, but he really mesmirized me. :) i mean he's just so so so cute. his name is ryan.. haha, don't woory, i'm no fido. :) just a loving person. haha. young ppl are my beloved. speaking of that, my dearest aashita was supposed to come, but she did'nt make it bcos of her mum. parents are unpredictable huhs...
haha, okays, its okay, i'm gonna get bps anw..but rite now i really need to quickly complete my econs research n slp!!! haha, Hospi report timing is @ 9am tmr! haha,good nites all! :D

Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
KEEP STRIKING!!!

One step at a time>> > >>

Hi there!
Its simply awesome just having to have a long break from school this period of time!i'm getting all ready to just woo hoo! Cheong for the rest of the year, graduate to Jc2, and next year, just drive on to the NUS! Last weekend, i was really impacted by the word of God. STRIKING THE GROUND over and over again. Question posted was What in my life that i should keep striking. Answer is that LIVE. I've struggled with living for the whole of last year. I mean, going to meetings late, duty, everything was topsy turvy. But as i started to set my path right this year, i begin to put things in place. This is just the BEGINNING. The future is indeed amazing! haha, no amount of discouragement is gonna pull me down, and if i fall, its gonna be a one day thing eveything starts afresh the next day. His mercies are new everyday. i'm gonna be LOUD. Gonna study hARDER, gonna Pray Harder! Gonna sow and reap harder! yeah!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE HARDER! alright man!!!
Love,
Hannah(TEN)2.0
Keep STRIKING!!!