BREAK THROUGH MAN!

First things first, wanna tell you my latest revelations. Recently I felt myself stagnant in my growth, feeling weary, and just like under tremendous pressure often. Besides, I also felt that B4 was rather stagnant in its growth, if not, maybe i was the one missing out. But you know, Over the weekend, I had a new revelation and I found that its was then i realised that I had lost that part of myself that had caused me to gradually lose my drive since I entered YJC, and carry the wrong attitude in life.

Lynette shared a really powerful message last Saturday during discipleship class. Of all the things she shared, 3 points i caught so much that I'm still holding it today, and i'm going to continue holding on to it since I made the decision to.

The first thing that God revealed to me was that Heart of God Church was built upon a dream to build the dreams of others. You know as i was sitting and listening to Lynette share
what I learnt from discipleship class, and in my spirit, i saw a supernatural event happening. It so felt like a magical experience but I knew in my spirit that God was speaking and showing something to me. I recalled the sometime around this season of my life last year when you spoke and share with me about God strategically placing me here in Hogc as a builder in the house. You know, it was at that God had shown me a vision even before the time you shared with me that I was holding tools and building the house of God, which was Hogc. It was there and then that i realised why I wanted so much to leave my previous church even though I was so comfortable in where I was at. It was through that recollection of my vision that God shook me and told me to start doing my work. Yup, there and then in the discipleship class. I knew immediately that I had a mission to accomplish and to do it with all my heart. Then, a thought striked me. I suddenly realised if I actually knew the dreams of others and built it like how Pastors had built mine. Whether i had actually touched hearts and be the vessel that God can use to touch hearts like how my heart was touched. I made my mind, I needed to know the dreams of my people. Thus, I did something that weekend.

The next thing that i caught was that as much as pastors put the heart into building HoGC by faith and sacrifice, Lynette shared about HoGC started in faith and it CANNOT fall in flesh. When I heard that, immediately something struck my heart! I cannot let my home fall in flesh. I must do my part in upholding the house of God, I can't let God's presence leave HoGC, I can't let HoGC fall and crumble. I can't let HoGC DNA and culture gradually dilute through the generations, and I must keep on passing the DNA and injecting it into the next Generation! Then, was when I decided, i need to keep my heart focused on God. There was when I started feeling the joy of the Lord flooding into my life again.

The last thing that wrecked my heart so much was the part when Lynette shared about the busiest period of HoGC for this year has passed, and we need to take this time to build ourselves. We need to come back and soak in the presence of God already. And my spirit interpreted it as the need to come back to the Heart of God, heart of worship. And that, I totally agree. So in this season, even though I may be studying for my Promos, and encountering the busiest seasons of my life of education, I must hang on to God. My heart so desired to come back into the thick presence of God. Wait on God, I have decided.

Then, the last thing that i caught was the part where Lynette mentioned about being real. Yeah, it hit me so much at that point. Especially now that I stepped into YJC, i realised that a slice and a piece of the real world is surfaced, and I start to see the complications and realness of life. At that moment, I suddenly saw something that I know that I will never see, I believed God Showed it to me. It was the thought of pastors. you know, i suddenly realised how God had used pastors to be great influence on my life. I suddenly saw that pastors had the chance to prosper in the world, and they are adults, there will definitlely be opportunities they could become political and complicated people. But i saw that they rather give up the world and do God's work rather than stay in the world and be succesful but not in God's will. You know it really was the most WOW thing I realised. I mean, definitely pastors would have been tempted to really not sow into our lives, but they went against the flow,and they stayed real and humble evene to this day. They are just so genuine, and even now, they will still be facing complicated people from the world, but they are always strong and being real and genuine, knowing they have God whose mightier than anything else. And that was what I saw. I knew, it had to be God to unfold these Big thoughts in my head that I can understand fully what my direction is in life now. That the was the most powerful revelation so far.

The next thing I did was to recommit myself to God all over again. When Pastor How was preaching last sunday, God reconfirmed and assured me that things would not go wrong,and so I can trust Him. I felt that it was the beginnings of my breakthrough. I felt my vision renewed, my purpose regained, and I was steering towards God again. I now am so eager to do things not on my own, but God,with pastors and the dream team!


Yeah! Breakthrough !

Love Hannah 2.0 ( A great leader lives )

Moving on

Yeah.

Life's been really on the dull side recently, but no, I won't let it eat into me. It has'nt been easy coping with all the stresses around me since, but, i'll still do it anyway. I should take more water breaks, or organise my life on a wiser scale. But, if you were in my place, you'd know that i don't have so much time to do so. Nope, I'm not gonna let the world take me over and despise the God in my life. I'm still gonna let God, and show man that its impossible by my strengths,but with God, nothing is impossible. You think that Christianity is something you choose to pick when its good, and throw when circumsatnces let you down, you're wrong. Let not your ways deceive me, cos I know that my God's stronger. God bless, I'm moving on, i'm moving on..

Till we meet again.

Love, Hannah 2.0

Moving on

Reminiscences

Hi .

Just now i had a really good cry. Somehow it just lingers on in my life. you see, death is a very sensitive issue in my life encyclopedia. Besides,life has been really on the rough side at this point. Just looking at my amazing future. CAn't wait.

Love hannah 2.0