yeah. think i'm having migraines.
Not severe but bad enough to spoil my mood. Maybe its dehydration. I dunno. whatever the case, i'm going home to pack my bag!! i mean my luggage. yeah. hahas. life's but a journey of dreams. time flies. very soon, its holidays, very soon, its over. very soon, its a new year all over again. hmms. But right now, i can't wait but get out of this place as soon as possible. when I sadi that, i meant, GRADUATE. yeah/ I think I need to keep indulging in the presence of God, recently, I've been really busy with life. where has God gone in my life???
No, i gotta hold on to God, and let God lead me. You say reliant? i reply, yes, reliant. TOTALLY on God.
Alright man, i gotta go. catch up some time after I return from China.
Love,
Hannah :)
life
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
woo hoho. 3 more days
okok.
gotta hurry, my stomach hurts, and after this, i gotta rush to the toilet, and then complete my chinese worksheet! power la. teacher not here today, had econs earlier on. later i'll be going down to church, study, go home, finish laundry, tomorrow, finish my 2.4 km run, den, proceed for the rest of the sch day, finally, I can go home and study proper, I can study for GP blok test on friday! hahas
then ,friday, i'll have paper after that i gotta go for discipleship in church. prayer mtg, home, and saturday, off to china!! hahas. i'll be missing red rain. =((
alright really gotta go off to the toilet!!
Love, Hannah :)
gotta hurry, my stomach hurts, and after this, i gotta rush to the toilet, and then complete my chinese worksheet! power la. teacher not here today, had econs earlier on. later i'll be going down to church, study, go home, finish laundry, tomorrow, finish my 2.4 km run, den, proceed for the rest of the sch day, finally, I can go home and study proper, I can study for GP blok test on friday! hahas
then ,friday, i'll have paper after that i gotta go for discipleship in church. prayer mtg, home, and saturday, off to china!! hahas. i'll be missing red rain. =((
alright really gotta go off to the toilet!!
Love, Hannah :)
Monday, May 12, 2008
Matthew 24:13 (New King James Version)
But he who endures to the end shall be saved.
Do you believe in God? I have been pondering about what happened these few days. And I have to confess, I DO! and i have been so blessed! Though I may have been discipled that day, but, holding on my convictions really paid off.
I finally lived to witness this day to see a soul saved before my eyes. This, I swear is just going to make a significant impact on my life.I will run from this day on!!!
I believe that taking what I am discipled about seriously that I may grow. For I so believe that God will not let me go through something I cannot handle. More than anything else, I truly am elated to witness the birth of a new spiritual life. Thank God that I can witness this phenomenon. Hallelujah! Forever God be praised!
I pray with my heart that this will not end here. May I continue to prosper in God, and witness more addition to the kingdom of God. SEEK. is the word of my season now.
God wants me to see from a point of view I have never seen before, to actually see beyond the surface.
I shared this with my leader, and I can share it with those who are willing to hear. I was praying to God, not willing to just be scolded and not do anything with my life. So, I started seeking and praying and asking God HOW did the leaders grow to be so powerful. How, did the people managed to win the souls for Christ. It grew so much into a desire that God planted a rhema into my heart. He said : " If you wnat SOMETHING, YOU GOTTA SOW THAT THING" immediately, my heart caught it, I told God that I'm not going to just sit there and wait and dream and desire for that time to come to pass, I started seeing the future with hope. I started seeing myself soaring as I put all hope and trust in God, the thoughts of being discipled kept coming back into my mind, I NEED TO GROW UP! I NEED TO LIVE LIFE RIGHT, I NEED TO GIVE WHAT I WANT TO SEE. Then, the thought struck me. I started to see how my school started coming into revival. It all has to start with somebody, something powerful. just like charleston did when he took north brooks. To me, logic, and common sense started to approach me. WISDOM, i believe started pouring into my life. I started to see how difficult revival would be with no one there to lead it. How sad and short lived it may be with a wrong life. Besides, if I can't accept what Sam tells me now, What makes me think I can accept what pastors tell me in future? If I can't humble myself now, what makes me think that I can bend before God next time? If I can't even submit to him who I can see, what makes me so sure I can submit to HIM who is now unseenable?
I started praying and planning my life strategising all I would do to go ALL OUT to be the best I can be for God! What Happened next was phenomenal.I shall never forget this moment from now on.
I hope that what I said and discovered really made sense and are words of wisdom. I am not perfect, but at least, I know where my heart sits in God. I live for the sole purpose to serve God and build HIs kingdom.
Ever proud of my dearest sister, a new addition in our family, Ling. May God continue touching her life, as well as many others just like hers.
FOREVER FAITHFUL,
Love,
Hannah
Do you believe in God? I have been pondering about what happened these few days. And I have to confess, I DO! and i have been so blessed! Though I may have been discipled that day, but, holding on my convictions really paid off.
I finally lived to witness this day to see a soul saved before my eyes. This, I swear is just going to make a significant impact on my life.I will run from this day on!!!
I believe that taking what I am discipled about seriously that I may grow. For I so believe that God will not let me go through something I cannot handle. More than anything else, I truly am elated to witness the birth of a new spiritual life. Thank God that I can witness this phenomenon. Hallelujah! Forever God be praised!
I pray with my heart that this will not end here. May I continue to prosper in God, and witness more addition to the kingdom of God. SEEK. is the word of my season now.
God wants me to see from a point of view I have never seen before, to actually see beyond the surface.
I shared this with my leader, and I can share it with those who are willing to hear. I was praying to God, not willing to just be scolded and not do anything with my life. So, I started seeking and praying and asking God HOW did the leaders grow to be so powerful. How, did the people managed to win the souls for Christ. It grew so much into a desire that God planted a rhema into my heart. He said : " If you wnat SOMETHING, YOU GOTTA SOW THAT THING" immediately, my heart caught it, I told God that I'm not going to just sit there and wait and dream and desire for that time to come to pass, I started seeing the future with hope. I started seeing myself soaring as I put all hope and trust in God, the thoughts of being discipled kept coming back into my mind, I NEED TO GROW UP! I NEED TO LIVE LIFE RIGHT, I NEED TO GIVE WHAT I WANT TO SEE. Then, the thought struck me. I started to see how my school started coming into revival. It all has to start with somebody, something powerful. just like charleston did when he took north brooks. To me, logic, and common sense started to approach me. WISDOM, i believe started pouring into my life. I started to see how difficult revival would be with no one there to lead it. How sad and short lived it may be with a wrong life. Besides, if I can't accept what Sam tells me now, What makes me think I can accept what pastors tell me in future? If I can't humble myself now, what makes me think that I can bend before God next time? If I can't even submit to him who I can see, what makes me so sure I can submit to HIM who is now unseenable?
I started praying and planning my life strategising all I would do to go ALL OUT to be the best I can be for God! What Happened next was phenomenal.I shall never forget this moment from now on.
I hope that what I said and discovered really made sense and are words of wisdom. I am not perfect, but at least, I know where my heart sits in God. I live for the sole purpose to serve God and build HIs kingdom.
Ever proud of my dearest sister, a new addition in our family, Ling. May God continue touching her life, as well as many others just like hers.
FOREVER FAITHFUL,
Love,
Hannah
Sunday, May 11, 2008
ONce AGAIN. but i will not falter.
Yeah, to all the people of the world, Happy Belated Mothers' Day.
Life is full of anxieties, and anticipation. Well, still on my heart today, just like ytd, I've been thinking through on and on about what Sam spoke to me about. I thought she meant it as a joke initially, but when she said she was'nt kidding, I started fretting. Have I really been so childish? I asked God to change me, my mentality, my attitude, my whole life. I want to win souls to Christ really. But have I been living up to standard worthy to be called a christian at all? Sam's right, call myself a admin. I'm definitely not fit to be one, it definitely isn't easy being one. I gotta consider the people from the Cg, even from my sch First even b4 I consider my bills. But, does it mean that I should give it up and just be an ordinary christian?
Does that give me the rights to backslide?
No. definitely NOt. For I truly believed that what I'm going through now is a test from God to determine how faithful I am to the little things. It is these little things that enable me to grow further more in God, to be able to accomplish the bigger things in life.
2b honest, i asked myself if I've even give my shot to be the best. My ardent answer is No.simple, sweet, direct, short.
I made up my mind to leave this place with a burning desire to serve and please God more. I don't care what the world throws at me now -Like Ivan said, just do, don't feel. Ya. I will grow even more, not shrink!
If that means, I need to mature, I need to mature. If it means that I need to be faithful to the little things inlife, I will be faithful! If it means that I have to keep doing it over and over again to remind myself, I WILL DO IT!!
Yeah! I wILL DO IT! :)
Please God, serve pastors. that's my only goal, dream and desire.
Love, hannah :)
Life is full of anxieties, and anticipation. Well, still on my heart today, just like ytd, I've been thinking through on and on about what Sam spoke to me about. I thought she meant it as a joke initially, but when she said she was'nt kidding, I started fretting. Have I really been so childish? I asked God to change me, my mentality, my attitude, my whole life. I want to win souls to Christ really. But have I been living up to standard worthy to be called a christian at all? Sam's right, call myself a admin. I'm definitely not fit to be one, it definitely isn't easy being one. I gotta consider the people from the Cg, even from my sch First even b4 I consider my bills. But, does it mean that I should give it up and just be an ordinary christian?
Does that give me the rights to backslide?
No. definitely NOt. For I truly believed that what I'm going through now is a test from God to determine how faithful I am to the little things. It is these little things that enable me to grow further more in God, to be able to accomplish the bigger things in life.
2b honest, i asked myself if I've even give my shot to be the best. My ardent answer is No.simple, sweet, direct, short.
I made up my mind to leave this place with a burning desire to serve and please God more. I don't care what the world throws at me now -Like Ivan said, just do, don't feel. Ya. I will grow even more, not shrink!
If that means, I need to mature, I need to mature. If it means that I need to be faithful to the little things inlife, I will be faithful! If it means that I have to keep doing it over and over again to remind myself, I WILL DO IT!!
Yeah! I wILL DO IT! :)
Please God, serve pastors. that's my only goal, dream and desire.
Love, hannah :)
Monday, May 5, 2008
I believe in the dreams and vision God gave to me
The death of my vision has partially occurred, however, I'll always remember that the day spoke to me, was the day I anticipated all these. Could I have heard from God wrongly? No I strongly believed as there was many evidences to proved God spoke.
there was the law of double mention, there was the peace. And I know that my God can never trick for He is always good. When God says I will prosper, I will prosper. My motive and intents?
It is more than just to support my family and let my mum RETIRE, I want to support the kingdom of God, and let my MUM also Build His kngdom not for her to relax and just end her life so meaninglessly. I think that I should pray more than I complain. hahas, okays, LOVE LOVE LOVE. God has chnged me, or I would'nt have been so open to corrections, besides, I would'nt have believed hard enough that my dreams, visions and aspirations WILL COME TO PASS so stronglt. No doubt, they may seem so idealistic, non-practical, but to be child-like, is to have faith in God. Is to truly believe that I play my part, the rest is up to God. That is the only logic that God has given me. As you know, And you can see that I'm pretty transparent about my life, besides, I am going to keep it this way, fearing that I'd be a different person, chnaged from the turmoils in life, I don't want.I want to remain with a heart that's pure, and genuine. That is what the heart for God means to me. That is to remain faithful to Him regardless come what may. Not faked, not facade, just pure, truthful and genuine. I am not perfect, neither am I self righteous, but I j=know that god has long forgiven my past sins and freed me from guilt. I have a free life NOW! :)
there was the law of double mention, there was the peace. And I know that my God can never trick for He is always good. When God says I will prosper, I will prosper. My motive and intents?
It is more than just to support my family and let my mum RETIRE, I want to support the kingdom of God, and let my MUM also Build His kngdom not for her to relax and just end her life so meaninglessly. I think that I should pray more than I complain. hahas, okays, LOVE LOVE LOVE. God has chnged me, or I would'nt have been so open to corrections, besides, I would'nt have believed hard enough that my dreams, visions and aspirations WILL COME TO PASS so stronglt. No doubt, they may seem so idealistic, non-practical, but to be child-like, is to have faith in God. Is to truly believe that I play my part, the rest is up to God. That is the only logic that God has given me. As you know, And you can see that I'm pretty transparent about my life, besides, I am going to keep it this way, fearing that I'd be a different person, chnaged from the turmoils in life, I don't want.I want to remain with a heart that's pure, and genuine. That is what the heart for God means to me. That is to remain faithful to Him regardless come what may. Not faked, not facade, just pure, truthful and genuine. I am not perfect, neither am I self righteous, but I j=know that god has long forgiven my past sins and freed me from guilt. I have a free life NOW! :)
hahas, what an irony
Do you know what?
last night I had a long time thinking about my life and all that is happened and all that I am coming into. I could see myself really depressed. I prayed and asked God what I should do. I know I had been really playing along with the politics in class, yeah. sad to say that I had been really bad in the way i actually speak to ppl about another person, after awhile I felt really uncomfortable, and promted by the Holy Spirit to STOP. I knew that I had grieved my Spirit, and if I were to continue, I would eventually lose myself. So I prayed and cried to God, as i start typing, I can feel that God is leading me into His plans/ One, I totally stop complaining. Two, I apologise even if the opposite party was the one to be coplicating, Third, that is to frequently count my blessings above all, Fourthly, Just LOVE UNDESERVEDLY. -though I may seem to be on the losing end. Fifth, make my stand, stand strong on my convictions of God. Sixth, that is do some mental isolation, imersing in the Holy Spirit, and seek the HEART OF GOD. Finally, that is stop judging, and just move on in life, striving for excellence, not be involved in their conversations, and all. Take no heed to their schemes, and just be faithful on my course. LOVE, GOD, PEOPLE, LIFE!!!!
I have to admit, I had been feeling really lousy these few days, maybe bcos I was feeling proud in the first place. Besides all these, I think that I should stop being manipulasting, and scheming on situations, When God promises something, He does it. Its just a matter of time.
Still pondering about the situation last night. I know that I need to be realistic, but again, it is also idealism that keeps a person passionate. I don't think I'm going to take all that negativity from mum, though I admit, it was a fault on my part to talk so much. Perhaps, it was wrongly conveyed, but more than that, I really should'nt have reacted to my judgement. I should just have been magnanimous, and prayed with her no matter how bad I felt on the inside, no matter how self-centred I saw her to be. God reminded me - She's still human. So am I.
But I set my mind on not speaking so much to her, it was a flaw on my part knowing that she is not a very humble person, I'm like her, I am stubborn, and Kia su/ At times, I'm negative and many times I don't encourage, but instead speak death. This really taught me a few lessons :
1. I am not humble enough to accept critism
2. I am not confident in God enough to totally believe what He has given me
3. I am not loving enough to take all the nonsense from people
oh no oh no! I need to change! I need to broaden my heart, and mind, I need to further seek counsel from God, and wisdom too. I need to be wise and think before i speak or say anything/ God, You Got to HELP me PLEASE!!
Love, Hannah. I am still happy. :)
last night I had a long time thinking about my life and all that is happened and all that I am coming into. I could see myself really depressed. I prayed and asked God what I should do. I know I had been really playing along with the politics in class, yeah. sad to say that I had been really bad in the way i actually speak to ppl about another person, after awhile I felt really uncomfortable, and promted by the Holy Spirit to STOP. I knew that I had grieved my Spirit, and if I were to continue, I would eventually lose myself. So I prayed and cried to God, as i start typing, I can feel that God is leading me into His plans/ One, I totally stop complaining. Two, I apologise even if the opposite party was the one to be coplicating, Third, that is to frequently count my blessings above all, Fourthly, Just LOVE UNDESERVEDLY. -though I may seem to be on the losing end. Fifth, make my stand, stand strong on my convictions of God. Sixth, that is do some mental isolation, imersing in the Holy Spirit, and seek the HEART OF GOD. Finally, that is stop judging, and just move on in life, striving for excellence, not be involved in their conversations, and all. Take no heed to their schemes, and just be faithful on my course. LOVE, GOD, PEOPLE, LIFE!!!!
I have to admit, I had been feeling really lousy these few days, maybe bcos I was feeling proud in the first place. Besides all these, I think that I should stop being manipulasting, and scheming on situations, When God promises something, He does it. Its just a matter of time.
Still pondering about the situation last night. I know that I need to be realistic, but again, it is also idealism that keeps a person passionate. I don't think I'm going to take all that negativity from mum, though I admit, it was a fault on my part to talk so much. Perhaps, it was wrongly conveyed, but more than that, I really should'nt have reacted to my judgement. I should just have been magnanimous, and prayed with her no matter how bad I felt on the inside, no matter how self-centred I saw her to be. God reminded me - She's still human. So am I.
But I set my mind on not speaking so much to her, it was a flaw on my part knowing that she is not a very humble person, I'm like her, I am stubborn, and Kia su/ At times, I'm negative and many times I don't encourage, but instead speak death. This really taught me a few lessons :
1. I am not humble enough to accept critism
2. I am not confident in God enough to totally believe what He has given me
3. I am not loving enough to take all the nonsense from people
oh no oh no! I need to change! I need to broaden my heart, and mind, I need to further seek counsel from God, and wisdom too. I need to be wise and think before i speak or say anything/ God, You Got to HELP me PLEASE!!
Love, Hannah. I am still happy. :)
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Touched to tears ^^ Cast your cares on the LORD~Psalm 55 : 22
Its been really long since i last blogged.
Life had really been eating my time, but it shan't stop me from pursuing my dream.
Days ago, pastor preached service for building fund plegde day 2008. It really touched my heart to see God using me to help pastors, and the tables around. Yes, I will keep and hold on to the promises I made in Christ, and I will definitely GIVE when I can. Never did I know that my testimony would touch others. But more than anything else, I pray that my testimony would never stop, besides, I pray ernestly that it will spur others to God more than before. Like my first building fund,it was really heartening to see God working in my life. Never before had I felt so good, Though life may not flow as how I want it to be, I may be caught in chaotic situations, but Jesus never fails to see into my wounds and heal it. Many times I've came broken hearted before Him, many times I cried into Him, He has really really stood by me, and NEVER failed to be faithful towards me, I pray m,y life and testimonies would be a great inspiration to the people around me, besides, I pray that all my life would serve and cater to God - administer to God like How the priests in the book of Ezekiel had to the LORD. I will never forget.
Love, Hannah
Life had really been eating my time, but it shan't stop me from pursuing my dream.
Days ago, pastor preached service for building fund plegde day 2008. It really touched my heart to see God using me to help pastors, and the tables around. Yes, I will keep and hold on to the promises I made in Christ, and I will definitely GIVE when I can. Never did I know that my testimony would touch others. But more than anything else, I pray that my testimony would never stop, besides, I pray ernestly that it will spur others to God more than before. Like my first building fund,it was really heartening to see God working in my life. Never before had I felt so good, Though life may not flow as how I want it to be, I may be caught in chaotic situations, but Jesus never fails to see into my wounds and heal it. Many times I've came broken hearted before Him, many times I cried into Him, He has really really stood by me, and NEVER failed to be faithful towards me, I pray m,y life and testimonies would be a great inspiration to the people around me, besides, I pray that all my life would serve and cater to God - administer to God like How the priests in the book of Ezekiel had to the LORD. I will never forget.
Love, Hannah
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