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Thursday, October 30, 2008

whoa. not quite right.

Hey there!

yeah, its 3.o2 am and i'm still wide awake! :) yeah. i'm wide awake. though i really feel like sleeping, i still have so much things to do. Besides, i really miss worshipping God. just staying in His presence can refresh me. :)

hAIS. WE'LL CHAT AGAIN. :)

lOVE,
HANNAH(ten) 2.0

Monday, October 13, 2008

LOYALTY

HI

LIFE'S BEEN GREAT, SO MUCH HAD PASSED, AND GOD'S BEEN AWESOME-AS ALWAYS. YOU KNOW RECENTLY I JUST ENDED MY PROMOS EXAM AND I WAS JUST THINKING AND CONSIDERING MY NEXT STAGE AND POINT OF LIFE. PRAYING AND ASKING GOD WHAT'S NEXT. GOD TOLD ME TO SOAR AND FLY HIGHER THAN BEFORE. THOUGH I FEEL A LITTLE AFRAID, I'M STILL GONNA GIVE MY BEST SHOT. TO BE HONEST, I KNOW I REALLY DON'T MEET THE CRITERIA OF PROMOTING. BUT SOMEHOW, THERE'S STILL HOPE WITHIN. I MAY NOT PROMOTE THIS YEAR, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, I HAVE PEACE IN MY HEART. I WASS WORSHIPING GOD FOR A SHORT WHILE, AND ITS ALWAYS AT MOMENTS LIKE THIS, I FEEL THE STRONG TOUCH OF GOD. HIS PRESENCE LINGERS EVEN AFTER WORSHIP. I WAS THINING IN MY HEART, WHAT A LONG WAY I'VE COME. I'M ALMOST IN CHURCH FOR 2 YEARS. IT HAS BEEN A BAD YEAR, AND IT'S BEEN A LONG WAY I'VE WAITED. IT'S ALMOST THE END OF THE YEAR, AND THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO LOOK BACK IN TIME, REALISING HOW FAITHFUL GOD HAS BEEN TO ME, NO MATTER HOW UNFAITHFUL I'VE BEEN TOWARD HIM SO MANY TIMES. HE NEVER FAILS TO BE THERE FOR ME. I REMEMBER THAT WHEN I FACED MY CLOSE FRIEND'S DEATH THIS YEAR, IT WAS A SLAP OF REALITY ON MY FACE. I REALISED HOW EASILY PEOPLES' LIFE COME AND GO. NO DOUBT, I KNEW SHE WAS GOING TO HEAVEN, BUT I WAS STILL ANGRY WITHIN. I WAS'NT SURE IF HE ANGER WAS TOWARD GOD OR THE DEVIL OR MYSELF. THERE WERE SO MANY THINGS THAT SPARKED THAT ANGER,THIS RESULTED IN ME NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR GOD AS CLEARLY AS BEFORE. AS I WAS WORSHIPPING, I REALISED THAT GOD IS GOOD, AND HE ALWAYS PLANS AHEAD. I REMEBERED SOMETIME LAST YEAR, THERE WAS A ZONE CAMP, AND CHARLESTON WAS PREACHING ON "OTHERS CAN, I CANNOT" THE SERMON WAS POWERFUL, BUT THE REVELATION FROM GOD WAS EVEN MORE POWERFUL. DURING ALTAR CALL, I WENT FORTH, I DID'NT KNOW THE LEADER WHO PRAYED FOR ME, I REALLY DID'NT WHO IT WAS UNTIL LATER ON. ALL I KNEW WAS THAT HE TOOK MY HANDS AND HELD IT WITH HIS THUMB AND INDEX FINGER, MAKING THE MARK OF CHRIST ON MY HANDS. AT THAT MOMENT, I ASKED GOD WHAT IT MEANT. THERE AND THEN, GOD SPOKE INTO MY HEART SAYING, "IN TIMES OF PAIN AND SUFFERING, WHEN YOU FACE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS, JUST REMEMBER THIS, I'M ALWAYS HERE, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE CARRYING YOU.. YOU WILL FACE MUCH MORE AHEAD, BUT JUST REMEMBER THIS, I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS YOU ARE MY PRINCESS" . THAT WAS THE TURNING POINT OF MY LIFE. MY POINT OF REFERENCE EVEN UP TO NOW. THOUGH THIS YEAR MIGHT HAVE BEEN A BAD YEAR, BUT GOD HAS MADE IT GREAT. THOUGH THERE'S BEEN SO MUCH PAIN AND SUFFERING, BUT GOD HAS MADE IT WELL.I WILL RUN THIS RACE FOR HIS SAKE. LOYALTY IS THE WORD I'VE MARKED MY HEART UPON. AND I'M PROUD AND GLAD TO SAY THAT I'M STILL FAITHFUL TO THIS DAY.

LOVE,
HANNAH (TEN) 2.0