Beginning never end

Hi there,

I wanna share something that has been on my heart recently. I think that all discouraged, sad, hurt and purposeless people should just know about this.

knowing that my friend passed away recently, I have admit, it was a tough time getting it of my mind, even up to now. It was really a struggle at that point of my life. But do you know what? I don't think i can ever forget or even hide it inside me. What I learnt through that season was that there ar emany things in life that occur sadly, but how we take it will determine our destiny.

For me, I cried over it umpteen times, i felt hurt, injured from the physical to psychological, and i hated it. I hated the emotional feeling and really hated the trauma i was going through. I mean, if anyone who knew me, would have seen that there was a season and period of time that I was really down, depressed and not myself at all. Even my classmates could tell that i was torn totally. I felt myself losing all sense and purpose, and drive of my life. Despite the various encouragements, nothing helped, the countless drive i had to take to motivate myself failed relentlessly. I lost all Hope, Purpose and Vision in life. I even started to neglect God.

But you know what? God never gave up on me. Even though He knew that I was unfaithful to Him alone, and I was just not living, He really remained faithful. In my walk with Christ, He has never failed to encourage or even disciple me. God would frequently remind me of my high calling and rebuke me to live up to standards, sometimes He would bring me back to His covenant and promises He made with me. Assuredly, He will never let me fall.

This season, I was just thinking to mydelf and I asked God if ever I could actually rise to a high level in my walk of life, in church and in the world. Regardless of the situation i'm in, God says i'm His esther and I have a high calling in Him. To me, will He instill character, confidence. To me, will He renew my mind and Spirit with his. To me, will He fulfill His promises.

I'm just so grateful for what I am today, for where I am at today. People can say and criticise all that I am, they may say all the things that can hurt me, or even become big in thrie eyes, but you know what, no matter how much or how big they see themselves as, the truth is i know my position in God, i know i am a royal preisthood, and i know my comfort, life and authority lies in the hands of the Father. With God with me, who can come against me?

coming to the end of my sharing today, I've just been thinking about the issue on focus. Focus. In my heart, I just have been thinking on whom do i place my focus in especially at where i am today, what am i to focus my eyes upon. pastors? leaders? myself? the end? the numbers? the growth? I tell you today, as long as i live, my focus lies in Jesus Christ. I always remember that leadership lies in the hands of God not man. What Ivan said was really true. We really can't depend on him, ultimately, he is still man. ultimately, he has to go to the army, and ultimately, it is not him that we're focusing on. the same goes with our pastors and other leaders. We should honour God before man. That's why i think that when we go to church, we must constantly and consistently remind and remeber ourselves our purpose and the heart behind coming to church.

That's why I am really prepared and ready to leave anything that draws and pulls me away from God. ;)

A new beginning and much more awaits me as i continue living and learning the way and the things that God planned for me to learn! RISE UP!

love, Hannah 2.0