Hi there
Finally i manage to hear God clearer than ever. Is God so small that I can't depend on Him in my walk of life?
i started out not so well this year. Its not going to be easy from this point, its the peak, or rather the slope in this period of my walk and life, i can say is really not easy. but you know what? with God on my side, would i be losing out man? God will not put me through something that I can't handle. right now, I must breakthrough my childishness. I will come through another level. I will emerge victorious at the end of race. Even if i were to retain, I will retain and study harder, doing better than anyone of them that promote. Its the start and the walk of my adulthood. I'm starting out afresh with God! :)
Love, Hannah 2.0
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Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
Beginning never end
Hi there,
I wanna share something that has been on my heart recently. I think that all discouraged, sad, hurt and purposeless people should just know about this.
knowing that my friend passed away recently, I have admit, it was a tough time getting it of my mind, even up to now. It was really a struggle at that point of my life. But do you know what? I don't think i can ever forget or even hide it inside me. What I learnt through that season was that there ar emany things in life that occur sadly, but how we take it will determine our destiny.
For me, I cried over it umpteen times, i felt hurt, injured from the physical to psychological, and i hated it. I hated the emotional feeling and really hated the trauma i was going through. I mean, if anyone who knew me, would have seen that there was a season and period of time that I was really down, depressed and not myself at all. Even my classmates could tell that i was torn totally. I felt myself losing all sense and purpose, and drive of my life. Despite the various encouragements, nothing helped, the countless drive i had to take to motivate myself failed relentlessly. I lost all Hope, Purpose and Vision in life. I even started to neglect God.
But you know what? God never gave up on me. Even though He knew that I was unfaithful to Him alone, and I was just not living, He really remained faithful. In my walk with Christ, He has never failed to encourage or even disciple me. God would frequently remind me of my high calling and rebuke me to live up to standards, sometimes He would bring me back to His covenant and promises He made with me. Assuredly, He will never let me fall.
This season, I was just thinking to mydelf and I asked God if ever I could actually rise to a high level in my walk of life, in church and in the world. Regardless of the situation i'm in, God says i'm His esther and I have a high calling in Him. To me, will He instill character, confidence. To me, will He renew my mind and Spirit with his. To me, will He fulfill His promises.
I'm just so grateful for what I am today, for where I am at today. People can say and criticise all that I am, they may say all the things that can hurt me, or even become big in thrie eyes, but you know what, no matter how much or how big they see themselves as, the truth is i know my position in God, i know i am a royal preisthood, and i know my comfort, life and authority lies in the hands of the Father. With God with me, who can come against me?
coming to the end of my sharing today, I've just been thinking about the issue on focus. Focus. In my heart, I just have been thinking on whom do i place my focus in especially at where i am today, what am i to focus my eyes upon. pastors? leaders? myself? the end? the numbers? the growth? I tell you today, as long as i live, my focus lies in Jesus Christ. I always remember that leadership lies in the hands of God not man. What Ivan said was really true. We really can't depend on him, ultimately, he is still man. ultimately, he has to go to the army, and ultimately, it is not him that we're focusing on. the same goes with our pastors and other leaders. We should honour God before man. That's why i think that when we go to church, we must constantly and consistently remind and remeber ourselves our purpose and the heart behind coming to church.
That's why I am really prepared and ready to leave anything that draws and pulls me away from God. ;)
A new beginning and much more awaits me as i continue living and learning the way and the things that God planned for me to learn! RISE UP!
love, Hannah 2.0
I wanna share something that has been on my heart recently. I think that all discouraged, sad, hurt and purposeless people should just know about this.
knowing that my friend passed away recently, I have admit, it was a tough time getting it of my mind, even up to now. It was really a struggle at that point of my life. But do you know what? I don't think i can ever forget or even hide it inside me. What I learnt through that season was that there ar emany things in life that occur sadly, but how we take it will determine our destiny.
For me, I cried over it umpteen times, i felt hurt, injured from the physical to psychological, and i hated it. I hated the emotional feeling and really hated the trauma i was going through. I mean, if anyone who knew me, would have seen that there was a season and period of time that I was really down, depressed and not myself at all. Even my classmates could tell that i was torn totally. I felt myself losing all sense and purpose, and drive of my life. Despite the various encouragements, nothing helped, the countless drive i had to take to motivate myself failed relentlessly. I lost all Hope, Purpose and Vision in life. I even started to neglect God.
But you know what? God never gave up on me. Even though He knew that I was unfaithful to Him alone, and I was just not living, He really remained faithful. In my walk with Christ, He has never failed to encourage or even disciple me. God would frequently remind me of my high calling and rebuke me to live up to standards, sometimes He would bring me back to His covenant and promises He made with me. Assuredly, He will never let me fall.
This season, I was just thinking to mydelf and I asked God if ever I could actually rise to a high level in my walk of life, in church and in the world. Regardless of the situation i'm in, God says i'm His esther and I have a high calling in Him. To me, will He instill character, confidence. To me, will He renew my mind and Spirit with his. To me, will He fulfill His promises.
I'm just so grateful for what I am today, for where I am at today. People can say and criticise all that I am, they may say all the things that can hurt me, or even become big in thrie eyes, but you know what, no matter how much or how big they see themselves as, the truth is i know my position in God, i know i am a royal preisthood, and i know my comfort, life and authority lies in the hands of the Father. With God with me, who can come against me?
coming to the end of my sharing today, I've just been thinking about the issue on focus. Focus. In my heart, I just have been thinking on whom do i place my focus in especially at where i am today, what am i to focus my eyes upon. pastors? leaders? myself? the end? the numbers? the growth? I tell you today, as long as i live, my focus lies in Jesus Christ. I always remember that leadership lies in the hands of God not man. What Ivan said was really true. We really can't depend on him, ultimately, he is still man. ultimately, he has to go to the army, and ultimately, it is not him that we're focusing on. the same goes with our pastors and other leaders. We should honour God before man. That's why i think that when we go to church, we must constantly and consistently remind and remeber ourselves our purpose and the heart behind coming to church.
That's why I am really prepared and ready to leave anything that draws and pulls me away from God. ;)
A new beginning and much more awaits me as i continue living and learning the way and the things that God planned for me to learn! RISE UP!
love, Hannah 2.0
Charge!
Hi there!
Its really been some time since i've blogged. I just wanna update a little about my life. Well it was my birthday last Firday. I guess, God has heard my plea, or rather my heart. i must say that God is good all the time. Well, this year, I received the best of ALL worlds. I mean I can't explain more. But its really the first time I received a gift from my classmates, its not cheap, besides, my pw team treated me at Sakae last friday, besides that, my aunt treated me to pasta mania and a movie treat watching WALL.E and she alsos blessed me with $50. More than all these, my cell group, and leader gave me a great book by Pastor Cho, and I got a birthday card personalised from Charleston!! hahas, that's the coolest thing i can get this birthday man! Somemore, to day my close friend, Qi yuan treated me at a Japanese Restaurant @ Liang court, the meal was really not cheap. But I tell you its not abt the gifts that matter to me, its the heart. :)
Recalling so much, I can alsos rmb that my junior and her sister Meili specially celebrated my birthday under a void deck near my place. And I have to say that God's really a great God. He even blessed me with a sermon disc set by Pastor Tan Ye Peng yesterday when he came to preach in HoGC. God saw how much i wanted Him more than ever. God is good! It was His gift for me. :)
I'm proud to be a christian!
I'm really grateful towards God for all the encouragements my God, pastors, leaders, church mates and even friends gave to me!! Its more than what I can imagine this day! Praise God! I am motivated to move on in life.
Love,
Hannah 2.0
Its really been some time since i've blogged. I just wanna update a little about my life. Well it was my birthday last Firday. I guess, God has heard my plea, or rather my heart. i must say that God is good all the time. Well, this year, I received the best of ALL worlds. I mean I can't explain more. But its really the first time I received a gift from my classmates, its not cheap, besides, my pw team treated me at Sakae last friday, besides that, my aunt treated me to pasta mania and a movie treat watching WALL.E and she alsos blessed me with $50. More than all these, my cell group, and leader gave me a great book by Pastor Cho, and I got a birthday card personalised from Charleston!! hahas, that's the coolest thing i can get this birthday man! Somemore, to day my close friend, Qi yuan treated me at a Japanese Restaurant @ Liang court, the meal was really not cheap. But I tell you its not abt the gifts that matter to me, its the heart. :)
Recalling so much, I can alsos rmb that my junior and her sister Meili specially celebrated my birthday under a void deck near my place. And I have to say that God's really a great God. He even blessed me with a sermon disc set by Pastor Tan Ye Peng yesterday when he came to preach in HoGC. God saw how much i wanted Him more than ever. God is good! It was His gift for me. :)
I'm proud to be a christian!
I'm really grateful towards God for all the encouragements my God, pastors, leaders, church mates and even friends gave to me!! Its more than what I can imagine this day! Praise God! I am motivated to move on in life.
Love,
Hannah 2.0
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