Hey you!
Yes you! if you're reading my blog, yeah, i've smth to tell ya! that is to get a LIFE! really,I mean, to be honest, I struggled with being able to live life, but yeah, now, I'm truly able to think cos I'm getting my life right!
No time to emphasise much but yeah, My final line, get a life, and you'll find mine. :)
Its great to lead a great life!!!
catch ya come other time ya? ! bye!!
Love,
Hannah 2.0 -- undergoing training! :)
life
face my life
Monday, July 28, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I'm Not Alone
Hey there
I'm currently in school using the computer for some PW stuff and , later I'll be typing my John 3: 16 training notes. Yeah. I dunno what got into me recently, I gotta confess, I've been procrastinating especially in the area where waking up is concerned. Sometimes even when i study,I dunno how to start or I tend to feel tired easily. But I'm not gonna give up just like that. I know that I'm not alone in this. ytd, I ws chatting with my classmate on the phone for nearly an hour or so. I believed she was really troubled, so with gratitude and attitude, I offered to pray for her and hear her out. My life seemed to pss that tide sometime ago. but now i see why God has placed me here. With a specifc time, and purpose. I'm even more determined not to give up just like that. I may feel tired now, but its not all over. I've set in my heart that the Devil cannot do anything to bring me down, be it in the physical, spiritual or emotional realm! If you're reading my blog, and understand how i'm feeling, please pray together with me, for my Family Grandpa's health and salvation, and my church growth to become more spiritual by the end of the year, our attendance would increase and more than that, every individual will grow spiritually! Lets rise to greater heights! AMEN!~ thanks. :)
Love, Hannah 2.0
I'm currently in school using the computer for some PW stuff and , later I'll be typing my John 3: 16 training notes. Yeah. I dunno what got into me recently, I gotta confess, I've been procrastinating especially in the area where waking up is concerned. Sometimes even when i study,I dunno how to start or I tend to feel tired easily. But I'm not gonna give up just like that. I know that I'm not alone in this. ytd, I ws chatting with my classmate on the phone for nearly an hour or so. I believed she was really troubled, so with gratitude and attitude, I offered to pray for her and hear her out. My life seemed to pss that tide sometime ago. but now i see why God has placed me here. With a specifc time, and purpose. I'm even more determined not to give up just like that. I may feel tired now, but its not all over. I've set in my heart that the Devil cannot do anything to bring me down, be it in the physical, spiritual or emotional realm! If you're reading my blog, and understand how i'm feeling, please pray together with me, for my Family Grandpa's health and salvation, and my church growth to become more spiritual by the end of the year, our attendance would increase and more than that, every individual will grow spiritually! Lets rise to greater heights! AMEN!~ thanks. :)
Love, Hannah 2.0
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Life's good! its gonna be great! :D
Hey hey!
I'm starting to feel the drive in life already. Yeah. Ytd, I went for leaders' mtg, and really hung out with the leaders and grew a level higher in knowing and thinking like them. I think the leaders' are really really cool. :) I love my leaders! Yeah! B4's gonna grow and breakthrough!! AMen!!:)
Love ,HAnnah!
~late for chinese class. :D
I'm starting to feel the drive in life already. Yeah. Ytd, I went for leaders' mtg, and really hung out with the leaders and grew a level higher in knowing and thinking like them. I think the leaders' are really really cool. :) I love my leaders! Yeah! B4's gonna grow and breakthrough!! AMen!!:)
Love ,HAnnah!
~late for chinese class. :D
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Picking it up again
hi
I'm starting to pick it all up again.
Had a wonderful time just hanging out with my new Cg yesterday. PPl from B4 are just COOL. They are so fun and funnie. I guess so much in life I look forward to is just these. FRIENDS. true friends. They stand by you and just love you.
I mean a day of troubles can cease within moments as long as you're around these bunch of ppl! Yeah. I love HoGC. Its my home its whr i belong. Its whr I stand. Its my home. Currently, I'm still in school. I intended to go for Prayer mtg earlier on, but. I'm late alrd. Might as well go the next week's one. I think its really cool to have Heart of God church to belong to. Life. Is just boring without HoGC.
Ask me, I just finished my A levels Chinese Listening Compre.. Must have been really not good, I emphasise again.. NOT GOOD. Not fail,but just a pass perhaps, not as well. :)
But i mean everybody knows me.. I'm not CHEENA PEI PEI la.
haha, does'nt really matter! When I came to sch this MORNING> like at 11+ 12pm like that, I realise how much i can start afresh again. I set my heart on looking on the bright side of life every morning.I must enjoy this walk i take in YJC. I have to strive and do well in my academics. I just heard that I may not hv the same CT nx year!!! YES!! I must study hard to promote!!!! I also heard that if we promote, confirm there'll be a change of teachers!!!! YES!!!!!!!! I must study hard, i must study hard!! I must i mustz!!! PROMOTE!! :)
OHLAYoLAY!! My GP teacher also say finally I'm making improvements in my Essay!!
WAY TO GO HANNAH!! Jia yo jia yo!! haha, migraines seem to be eating into my strength, but i must resist! I will stand and start studying after this!! :)
Kinda miss my life. ~
Love,
HAnnah 2.0
I'm starting to pick it all up again.
Had a wonderful time just hanging out with my new Cg yesterday. PPl from B4 are just COOL. They are so fun and funnie. I guess so much in life I look forward to is just these. FRIENDS. true friends. They stand by you and just love you.
I mean a day of troubles can cease within moments as long as you're around these bunch of ppl! Yeah. I love HoGC. Its my home its whr i belong. Its whr I stand. Its my home. Currently, I'm still in school. I intended to go for Prayer mtg earlier on, but. I'm late alrd. Might as well go the next week's one. I think its really cool to have Heart of God church to belong to. Life. Is just boring without HoGC.
Ask me, I just finished my A levels Chinese Listening Compre.. Must have been really not good, I emphasise again.. NOT GOOD. Not fail,but just a pass perhaps, not as well. :)
But i mean everybody knows me.. I'm not CHEENA PEI PEI la.
haha, does'nt really matter! When I came to sch this MORNING> like at 11+ 12pm like that, I realise how much i can start afresh again. I set my heart on looking on the bright side of life every morning.I must enjoy this walk i take in YJC. I have to strive and do well in my academics. I just heard that I may not hv the same CT nx year!!! YES!! I must study hard to promote!!!! I also heard that if we promote, confirm there'll be a change of teachers!!!! YES!!!!!!!! I must study hard, i must study hard!! I must i mustz!!! PROMOTE!! :)
OHLAYoLAY!! My GP teacher also say finally I'm making improvements in my Essay!!
WAY TO GO HANNAH!! Jia yo jia yo!! haha, migraines seem to be eating into my strength, but i must resist! I will stand and start studying after this!! :)
Kinda miss my life. ~
Love,
HAnnah 2.0
Monday, July 14, 2008
What's happening.
My my.
Somebody please hear me. I dunno whats happening to me. I really don't. Got a dressing down by my teacher. I feel really bad. I mean about myself. I feel so like a hypocrite. Am i? am I?
Why m i feeling this way? I really really want to do well in Church, school at home and in my spiritual walk with God. What happened along the way? Why do i start feeling so down? Jeevitha's death brought about a great change in my life. Why is that so?
It has caused me to think how meaningless how life is. Besides, I feel like i've not been myself recently. And, i know that i sometimes behave immaturely. But sometimes, its really a part of me. I am really LOST.
Just that day i was really impacted and wanted to work hard for my promos. But why m i starting to procrastinate and lament now? Have I given up hope on God? or m i just tired with the way things are?
Have i lost self respect or what? was i crazy carrying a bad attitude around in school ?
Or is it the people around me? Has my morale dropped bcos of the people in sch or my teachers? Or has the sch system really tore my world of hopes away? Has ministry really been the one to pull me away?
Apparently it does'nt seem to be the case. I agree that i go to church more often than before. more than anyone else. But, that does'nt mean i can't do it right? have i lost the support already? Don't i have a life and a right to choose as well?
Isn't it my life to handle and control? Do they have to add pressure to my life? Am i not human as well? can't i even have the liberty to do the things that I've always wanted to do? Can't i even have the chance to face a rough patch in life, and pull through without authorities' interference?
I tried, i really tried/ Why does it seem like I've not even progressed a single bit? It feels like they have given up on me. When I say that, I meant that they gave up trusting in me. Trusting me in handling my own life. I know i make mistakes, i know i'm not super. but i also know that at the end of the day, God is with me. Trusting in Him is my only solution. But does it seem that people are doubting the strength of God? Why does it seem that I'm the stupid one to trust in God.
Church commitment is not little. I agree, but at least doing it really makes me happy. God's tasks for me makes me realise and learn what I've never thought i could do. Besides, everytime I do His tasks, i start loving people more and more. I start feeling faith rise within me. Its different from that of school homeworks. Besides, people in church are so much a part of me now. I really love being in the house of God than to dwell in the school. Facades I never fathomed about. But stir and abrupts my spirit. No peace, no sense of belonging. No voice, no life. I know that academics is important,i really do. But, to achieve great results is not by doing it this way. I'm a normal being who needs my life too. Church commitments has become a part of me, its my joy of doing such. Its not a chore, but a joy. Studying is also smth that i really enjoy. But why has the system made it so dreadful?
Everytime i think of YJC, i'm always seeing a person carrying a heavy bag, hunched back, with no energy to enjoy his walk in school. And a sense of deep solace within that person.Look around me, practically every student who used to be so joyful are looking EXACTLY the way as I've thought. And those who don't basically has no life! School is their ONLY life. They are happy about having a school bounded life. Well, I know that JC life meant to be like that, but isn't Yj a little too much? No wonder we are at the bottom of the ranks. School hrs are long, students are literally forced into a pit. And lockers! I bet YJ is the only school that has NO LOCKERS!
Dusty environment, broken and dirty equipments. Teachers think they know the world so well. Bad organising team. A team that can't even plan the whole school system well that will give enough time for students to rest. C'mon! no wonder my classmates are getting depressed every now and then, no wonder everyday i step into school, i see moody faces, and negative looks and attitude everywhere i go. No wonder my mood seem so bad.
BAD BAD BAD.
But i'm not giving up my life just like that. I'm still gonna strive to study, graduate by year 2 and go to NUS. I'm not determine to let people despise my God. I'm going to keep studying. The only thing which I find hard that may obstruct my progress is basically the people around me. I don't need my teachers to burden me, and add to my load. I'm self awared of myself. I don't need my mum to threaten me with pastors. I don't need my friends and teachers and sometimes family members to place eme in the frame they thought i would be. I just need trust and encouragement to push me towards success.
I shall shut my mouth from now, just seeking and thinking from God. God neevr gave up on me.Why should i give up? I WILL SUCCEED AND DRIVE PEOPLE TO THINK AND RECONSIDER THEIR THOUGHT ABOUT LIFE AND GOD!!!
Love,HANnah 2.0
Somebody please hear me. I dunno whats happening to me. I really don't. Got a dressing down by my teacher. I feel really bad. I mean about myself. I feel so like a hypocrite. Am i? am I?
Why m i feeling this way? I really really want to do well in Church, school at home and in my spiritual walk with God. What happened along the way? Why do i start feeling so down? Jeevitha's death brought about a great change in my life. Why is that so?
It has caused me to think how meaningless how life is. Besides, I feel like i've not been myself recently. And, i know that i sometimes behave immaturely. But sometimes, its really a part of me. I am really LOST.
Just that day i was really impacted and wanted to work hard for my promos. But why m i starting to procrastinate and lament now? Have I given up hope on God? or m i just tired with the way things are?
Have i lost self respect or what? was i crazy carrying a bad attitude around in school ?
Or is it the people around me? Has my morale dropped bcos of the people in sch or my teachers? Or has the sch system really tore my world of hopes away? Has ministry really been the one to pull me away?
Apparently it does'nt seem to be the case. I agree that i go to church more often than before. more than anyone else. But, that does'nt mean i can't do it right? have i lost the support already? Don't i have a life and a right to choose as well?
Isn't it my life to handle and control? Do they have to add pressure to my life? Am i not human as well? can't i even have the liberty to do the things that I've always wanted to do? Can't i even have the chance to face a rough patch in life, and pull through without authorities' interference?
I tried, i really tried/ Why does it seem like I've not even progressed a single bit? It feels like they have given up on me. When I say that, I meant that they gave up trusting in me. Trusting me in handling my own life. I know i make mistakes, i know i'm not super. but i also know that at the end of the day, God is with me. Trusting in Him is my only solution. But does it seem that people are doubting the strength of God? Why does it seem that I'm the stupid one to trust in God.
Church commitment is not little. I agree, but at least doing it really makes me happy. God's tasks for me makes me realise and learn what I've never thought i could do. Besides, everytime I do His tasks, i start loving people more and more. I start feeling faith rise within me. Its different from that of school homeworks. Besides, people in church are so much a part of me now. I really love being in the house of God than to dwell in the school. Facades I never fathomed about. But stir and abrupts my spirit. No peace, no sense of belonging. No voice, no life. I know that academics is important,i really do. But, to achieve great results is not by doing it this way. I'm a normal being who needs my life too. Church commitments has become a part of me, its my joy of doing such. Its not a chore, but a joy. Studying is also smth that i really enjoy. But why has the system made it so dreadful?
Everytime i think of YJC, i'm always seeing a person carrying a heavy bag, hunched back, with no energy to enjoy his walk in school. And a sense of deep solace within that person.Look around me, practically every student who used to be so joyful are looking EXACTLY the way as I've thought. And those who don't basically has no life! School is their ONLY life. They are happy about having a school bounded life. Well, I know that JC life meant to be like that, but isn't Yj a little too much? No wonder we are at the bottom of the ranks. School hrs are long, students are literally forced into a pit. And lockers! I bet YJ is the only school that has NO LOCKERS!
Dusty environment, broken and dirty equipments. Teachers think they know the world so well. Bad organising team. A team that can't even plan the whole school system well that will give enough time for students to rest. C'mon! no wonder my classmates are getting depressed every now and then, no wonder everyday i step into school, i see moody faces, and negative looks and attitude everywhere i go. No wonder my mood seem so bad.
BAD BAD BAD.
But i'm not giving up my life just like that. I'm still gonna strive to study, graduate by year 2 and go to NUS. I'm not determine to let people despise my God. I'm going to keep studying. The only thing which I find hard that may obstruct my progress is basically the people around me. I don't need my teachers to burden me, and add to my load. I'm self awared of myself. I don't need my mum to threaten me with pastors. I don't need my friends and teachers and sometimes family members to place eme in the frame they thought i would be. I just need trust and encouragement to push me towards success.
I shall shut my mouth from now, just seeking and thinking from God. God neevr gave up on me.Why should i give up? I WILL SUCCEED AND DRIVE PEOPLE TO THINK AND RECONSIDER THEIR THOUGHT ABOUT LIFE AND GOD!!!
Love,HANnah 2.0
Is it You? - SOng by Cassie.
I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thoughts to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking your the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thoughts to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
One more down. a close one.
Hi.
I lost another of my friend. this time round its somebody closer. My secondary school best friend. We never saw each other again til this year sometime within the last three months. She was really fine then. What happened? I need to go and find out more. Its getting scarier each time. I can't imagine such gruesome things happened in my life. Its reality, not a drama. How i wish it really was not reality. But its kinda hard to accept the fact. Not till i've seen for myself. But somehow I felt myself being numbed of my emotions.
When i heard the news broadcast yesterday, it did'nt occur to me that it was her. The Holy Spirit prompted me saying that it was somebody I knew. I took forgranted and did not bother to find out who it was. It was so sudden I don't really know how to deal with my emotions. I was sobbing during econs lecture earlier on, and I really did'nt know how to face up to this.
In my heart, I was just thinking how i should react to this incident. Its too coincidental that there's so many death among my circle of friends occuring. The Lord is trying to tell me something. The only thing that I really regretted was not bringing the dead to church. I tried, but could hv tried harder. But then again, life suddenly seems so fragile to me. I can't fathom the thought how i was going to cope with another incident. Will I be void of my emotions over again? Life seems so meaningless to me now.
You may ask me how i felt abt the murderer. Of course I felt that he should be punished severely, if i were'nt a christian, I would go aft him at all cost. but because I carry the name of the Lord, God has softened that spot in my heart. He has forbidden that i'd deal with hatred. Thus, I'm not concerned abt this evil, wicked indispicable man whose blood of the child of God is in his hands! I live to love, so I'm really concerned for the parents of Ashley. Her mum especially. I'll look for her. I'll do something after this. I need to find out and just be there for the mother of my friend. It burdens my heart. Now, her parents don't need to fight over finances and all already.
Back to my thoughts. God has wonderfully lifted my sorrows cause I believed God has warned me abt these events beforehand, that I may not be too affected by the dead but living. I look forward to the day where I'll meet Jeev in heaven when i'm old. I was reading my bible this morning, where Jonathan who was so close to David died. God has set my path in place, that I may seek Him before anything else. God has become my comfort. He has become my cushion and even if i were die I'll die for the cause of my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.
If something happens to me, the only wish and desire I have in heart is to see my friends and relatives saved in Jesus Christ. My Grandfather, Uncle, classmates, ex-classmates, friends, people around me. For me, I live for Christ, and i know that if God takes me home, I'm sure to go heaven for eternity. I may fear death now, but I fear God more than anything else. The devil may take my body, but God takes my soul. The reason why I want to see all that I know coming to Christ is for the single wish to see them all worshipping and fellowshipping with God and us all. I rather we see ourselves in heaven than seeing these people in hell. Its for eternal. I'm carrying a burden of spreading the gospel with the people around me seriously for now.
I know my friend is gonna live in heaven just like Jonathan, the friend whom David loved. My joy is in the Lord, and my friend is in the Lord although she's a catholic, but I believed God has touched in her life. I'm gonna pray and intercede.
Love, Hannah 2.0
I lost another of my friend. this time round its somebody closer. My secondary school best friend. We never saw each other again til this year sometime within the last three months. She was really fine then. What happened? I need to go and find out more. Its getting scarier each time. I can't imagine such gruesome things happened in my life. Its reality, not a drama. How i wish it really was not reality. But its kinda hard to accept the fact. Not till i've seen for myself. But somehow I felt myself being numbed of my emotions.
When i heard the news broadcast yesterday, it did'nt occur to me that it was her. The Holy Spirit prompted me saying that it was somebody I knew. I took forgranted and did not bother to find out who it was. It was so sudden I don't really know how to deal with my emotions. I was sobbing during econs lecture earlier on, and I really did'nt know how to face up to this.
In my heart, I was just thinking how i should react to this incident. Its too coincidental that there's so many death among my circle of friends occuring. The Lord is trying to tell me something. The only thing that I really regretted was not bringing the dead to church. I tried, but could hv tried harder. But then again, life suddenly seems so fragile to me. I can't fathom the thought how i was going to cope with another incident. Will I be void of my emotions over again? Life seems so meaningless to me now.
You may ask me how i felt abt the murderer. Of course I felt that he should be punished severely, if i were'nt a christian, I would go aft him at all cost. but because I carry the name of the Lord, God has softened that spot in my heart. He has forbidden that i'd deal with hatred. Thus, I'm not concerned abt this evil, wicked indispicable man whose blood of the child of God is in his hands! I live to love, so I'm really concerned for the parents of Ashley. Her mum especially. I'll look for her. I'll do something after this. I need to find out and just be there for the mother of my friend. It burdens my heart. Now, her parents don't need to fight over finances and all already.
Back to my thoughts. God has wonderfully lifted my sorrows cause I believed God has warned me abt these events beforehand, that I may not be too affected by the dead but living. I look forward to the day where I'll meet Jeev in heaven when i'm old. I was reading my bible this morning, where Jonathan who was so close to David died. God has set my path in place, that I may seek Him before anything else. God has become my comfort. He has become my cushion and even if i were die I'll die for the cause of my Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.
If something happens to me, the only wish and desire I have in heart is to see my friends and relatives saved in Jesus Christ. My Grandfather, Uncle, classmates, ex-classmates, friends, people around me. For me, I live for Christ, and i know that if God takes me home, I'm sure to go heaven for eternity. I may fear death now, but I fear God more than anything else. The devil may take my body, but God takes my soul. The reason why I want to see all that I know coming to Christ is for the single wish to see them all worshipping and fellowshipping with God and us all. I rather we see ourselves in heaven than seeing these people in hell. Its for eternal. I'm carrying a burden of spreading the gospel with the people around me seriously for now.
I know my friend is gonna live in heaven just like Jonathan, the friend whom David loved. My joy is in the Lord, and my friend is in the Lord although she's a catholic, but I believed God has touched in her life. I'm gonna pray and intercede.
Love, Hannah 2.0
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I am grieved
Hi,
I just found out that my secondary school friend just passed away. I'm really grieved. Feel so much like crying but i just can't. Tho i'm not exceptionally his gd friend, close or not. but i must say that he was my friend. I feel really sad cos i did'nt get the chance to bring him to church. I think its really a mind changing experience. I realized how much i must start reaching out to these ppl who needs God so much. However God has been gd! God has been great! new salvations every week!! :)
love, hannah
I just found out that my secondary school friend just passed away. I'm really grieved. Feel so much like crying but i just can't. Tho i'm not exceptionally his gd friend, close or not. but i must say that he was my friend. I feel really sad cos i did'nt get the chance to bring him to church. I think its really a mind changing experience. I realized how much i must start reaching out to these ppl who needs God so much. However God has been gd! God has been great! new salvations every week!! :)
love, hannah
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Life.
hey!
You ask me what life means to me. I tell you, this is is. Life.
Life without Jesus is really meaningless. i am just so happy that i've been chosen to attend discipleship with Pastors. It's really a great honour for me. it has been my desire to be close with the man and woman of God. It has been my dream to serve pastors till I get old.
This morning I was just thinking to myself abt the grace and mercy God has showered upon my life. i realized that God has been good to me. When i was doing my devotional early this morning, I was reading the book of Samuel. I just admire the character of David. I told God and made a decision thats is even when i start to become successful in life, prosper and all, i would never want to leave his presence. the one thing I feared most is losing my connection with God. For he could promote me, and He and demote me as well. I promised God that i'll always keep a heart of faith and humility. that i may never stray from His ways, for if I want to be used by God, my basic requirement is to seek His ways.
I know that in this time of trial and testing, God has given another chance and opportunity to train my capacity. i know that in the midst of my busy schedule, and packed timetable, i can cope with it all for i know that God will not give me smth that I cannot take or conquer. For every level i proceed, another devil in seat. I must never give eup for the cause of Jesus Christ. i know that my friends are thinking that doing so much for God and the church is really meaningless, and useless. but I tell you, as surely as my God lives, He will pull me through it all.
I am all set and ready to start working hard for God. I still wanna grow up, support SOF, bring my family overseas often, and I wanna be able to bless many with my finances and my testimonies.
On the bus to gramps place, a sudden thought came into my mind. It OBVIOUSLY is not from God. Something that went like this : " now that your life is getting stressful and all, why don't you just give it all up? For if you give up going to church, you'll be able to concentrate well in your studies, and life would be good for you. You gain and don't lose at all." Then in my spirit, another voice spoke. it said: "No! I'll never ever try to fathom the thought of leaving God. You know what? Though to you i may seem to be happy and joyful that if I leave church and do especially well in my academic, but truly, that joy can never reach the one of which you witness a soul saved for Jesus Christ. For i do not look to the physical gains in life, but the supernatural. Besides, life would be meaningless if i just studied and gave up my great destiny in God for smth so absolute. Look, though i may not have done well in my academic currently, God is good, and who said that Christians can't be radical yet academically inclined in the FIRST place? for i know that the word of God clearly states that " For seel FIRST His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you" Matthew 6:33. memorised, by heart! That voice got so dumbfounded and shut out, and I felt a surge of faith and courage in my spirit.
okays, its kinda late, so aft this, i'm going to purchase my stud concession,and change the money!
If you know me, Please pray for my grandfather's health and salvation. thanks.
Anw, its so exciting! We hv a zone mtg tmr, and I bet, its so cool! Good bye!
Love, HAnnah :)
You ask me what life means to me. I tell you, this is is. Life.
Life without Jesus is really meaningless. i am just so happy that i've been chosen to attend discipleship with Pastors. It's really a great honour for me. it has been my desire to be close with the man and woman of God. It has been my dream to serve pastors till I get old.
This morning I was just thinking to myself abt the grace and mercy God has showered upon my life. i realized that God has been good to me. When i was doing my devotional early this morning, I was reading the book of Samuel. I just admire the character of David. I told God and made a decision thats is even when i start to become successful in life, prosper and all, i would never want to leave his presence. the one thing I feared most is losing my connection with God. For he could promote me, and He and demote me as well. I promised God that i'll always keep a heart of faith and humility. that i may never stray from His ways, for if I want to be used by God, my basic requirement is to seek His ways.
I know that in this time of trial and testing, God has given another chance and opportunity to train my capacity. i know that in the midst of my busy schedule, and packed timetable, i can cope with it all for i know that God will not give me smth that I cannot take or conquer. For every level i proceed, another devil in seat. I must never give eup for the cause of Jesus Christ. i know that my friends are thinking that doing so much for God and the church is really meaningless, and useless. but I tell you, as surely as my God lives, He will pull me through it all.
I am all set and ready to start working hard for God. I still wanna grow up, support SOF, bring my family overseas often, and I wanna be able to bless many with my finances and my testimonies.
On the bus to gramps place, a sudden thought came into my mind. It OBVIOUSLY is not from God. Something that went like this : " now that your life is getting stressful and all, why don't you just give it all up? For if you give up going to church, you'll be able to concentrate well in your studies, and life would be good for you. You gain and don't lose at all." Then in my spirit, another voice spoke. it said: "No! I'll never ever try to fathom the thought of leaving God. You know what? Though to you i may seem to be happy and joyful that if I leave church and do especially well in my academic, but truly, that joy can never reach the one of which you witness a soul saved for Jesus Christ. For i do not look to the physical gains in life, but the supernatural. Besides, life would be meaningless if i just studied and gave up my great destiny in God for smth so absolute. Look, though i may not have done well in my academic currently, God is good, and who said that Christians can't be radical yet academically inclined in the FIRST place? for i know that the word of God clearly states that " For seel FIRST His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you" Matthew 6:33. memorised, by heart! That voice got so dumbfounded and shut out, and I felt a surge of faith and courage in my spirit.
okays, its kinda late, so aft this, i'm going to purchase my stud concession,and change the money!
If you know me, Please pray for my grandfather's health and salvation. thanks.
Anw, its so exciting! We hv a zone mtg tmr, and I bet, its so cool! Good bye!
Love, HAnnah :)
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