ONce AGAIN. but i will not falter.

Yeah, to all the people of the world, Happy Belated Mothers' Day.

Life is full of anxieties, and anticipation. Well, still on my heart today, just like ytd, I've been thinking through on and on about what Sam spoke to me about. I thought she meant it as a joke initially, but when she said she was'nt kidding, I started fretting. Have I really been so childish? I asked God to change me, my mentality, my attitude, my whole life. I want to win souls to Christ really. But have I been living up to standard worthy to be called a christian at all? Sam's right, call myself a admin. I'm definitely not fit to be one, it definitely isn't easy being one. I gotta consider the people from the Cg, even from my sch First even b4 I consider my bills. But, does it mean that I should give it up and just be an ordinary christian?

Does that give me the rights to backslide?

No. definitely NOt. For I truly believed that what I'm going through now is a test from God to determine how faithful I am to the little things. It is these little things that enable me to grow further more in God, to be able to accomplish the bigger things in life.

2b honest, i asked myself if I've even give my shot to be the best. My ardent answer is No.simple, sweet, direct, short.

I made up my mind to leave this place with a burning desire to serve and please God more. I don't care what the world throws at me now -Like Ivan said, just do, don't feel. Ya. I will grow even more, not shrink!


If that means, I need to mature, I need to mature. If it means that I need to be faithful to the little things inlife, I will be faithful! If it means that I have to keep doing it over and over again to remind myself, I WILL DO IT!!

Yeah! I wILL DO IT! :)

Please God, serve pastors. that's my only goal, dream and desire.

Love, hannah :)